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Merry X'mas 2006 & Happy New Year 2007

2006-12-14T21:34:00.000+08:00

In case I can't update on Xmas, I just wanna say: Merry X'mas 2006 and Happy New Year 2007. May the new time will give you a lot of new blessings. Hope all the best for all of you! =).. God bless you all! =)

Never Break My Heart

2006-11-18T23:08:00.000+08:00

Hm.. Everything started when I reached Indonesia. I was happy for sure. First 2 weeks, I can a bit enjoy it. But, when it reached the 3rd week, I can't enjoy it. I felt like wanna run away from home. I don't feel like want to stay longer at home... I just wanna go back to Singapore asap... I can't stand it anymore... I don't feel it as my home... Everything just because of her.

I can't understand her. I don't what she wants actually. Everytime she starts to talk abt something serious with me, everytime also it must end up with fighting. Why? Everytime she angry to me, everytime also she start to blame me for everything. Whatever I have done, she always say that I've done it wrongly. She never satisfy with my work. She never satisfy with my result. She never satisfy with whatever I do.

When I feel happy, she always turn me down... She always success to make me sad... In other words, she is qualified to break somebody's heart. Don't know what to do... I hate to say that... But, it's a matter of fact...

For people who always support and comfort me whenever I need it, I just wanna say thanx for your kind attention and care to me, I really appreciate that (at least, you never try to break my heart...)I don't care whether you lie to me or not.. I just appreciate your effort to cheer me up. Wihout you, I may be such a gone case...

Who Am I?

2006-10-23T18:34:00.000+08:00

I thought I'm kind person which described on Proverbs 14:31 (Bhs. Indo, Amsal 14:31). Go and read and you should understand me better. What you see sometimes is not the reality. What you think may not the fact. When you understand that, you may understand other people that the same with me... =)...

TODAY IS THE BEST! I LOVE TODAY SO MUCH... But, don't forget that, die day is coming soon to your way! Watch out and prepare yourself, people! =) Hope all the best for everybody in the clas 303... Hope we can meet at 403 next year! =)

=GBU=

TODAY, will I cry?

2006-10-20T10:32:00.000+08:00

Now.. Still 10.26 a.m. But, I already nervous like hell... I SCARED!!! I SCARED!!!! Some more yesterday I got this 2 information that made me shocked and almost die caused by heart attack... T_T.... I'm so scared and yet, people still can make such of this news....

First news was that only 2 foreigners from my class (303) who pass the English Test... And the 2 students are Ha Thu and Ke Lin... Don't know what to comment...

Second news was that the English marks this time around is much better than the Mid Year Exam.... Huaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa..............................

Don't know which one I should trust... I don't wanna care...... I just don't wanna stress myself... It's the scariest thing to stress up myself...

*Tuhan.. bantuin donk... Aku tau dan nyadar koq... klo kuasaMu tuh ga ada bandingannya... Aku bs aja berpasrah kepadaMu... Aku ingin belajar utk berpasrah... Aku ingin bgt bs dkt dgnMu... Aku ga mau kehilanganMu Tuhan... Tuhan... Kau sungguh baik... Kau menciptakan segalanya baik... Smua baik.. Smua baik... Sungguh teramat baik.. Kau jadikan hidupku sangat berarti... Yes Lord... Yes Lord... Ga ada yg bisa nandingin Tuhan d... Percaya 100%... Tuhan yg kumiliki adalah Tuhan yg exist... yg mendengarkan setiap keluhan anak2Nya.. Dia ga pernah ninggalin aku sendirian... Dia baek bgt... Berkuasa... Adil... Pemaaf... Tau segalanya (bahkan sebelum kita ngomong ke dia.. nah lu... sip khan?)... Dia tau mana yg terbaik bt kita... Dia tau mana yg hrs Dia ksh bt kita... Tuhan....... Kau indah.. Kau wonderful... CaraMu... sungguh tak terselami dan tak pernah diduga... JalanMu tak terselami... Oleh setiap hati kami... Hanya Kau Tuhan.. yg paling indah... I LOVE my GOD.... I LOVE my JESUS... I LOVE HIM so much... Aku ga mau mengecewakan diriMu Tuhan... Ga mau... Aku ingin menyenangkan diriMu Tuhan... Hanya demikianlah caraku membalas kebaikanMu kepadaku... =)... Thanx God for everything... Walau aku berada dalam kesusahan, aku akan tetap berusyukur padaMu... Krn aku yakin bahwa Kau telah menyiapkan sesuatu yg indah di balik semuanya... Sesuatu yg indah utk aku... Thanx GOD... Sampai habis kuberkata2... namun... kuasaMu takkan berkesudahan... Amen...*

ILI's survey

2006-10-18T21:51:00.000+08:00

Single, taken or crushing?
* Single but not available... *

Are you happy with your life now?
* Haha! Sometimes... *

When you meet the right person, do you fall in love with him fast?
* Depends on the person... *

Have you ever had your heart broken?
* Hmm... Praise to GOD, never... *

Do you believe there are some circumstances where cheating love is acceptable?
* nope *

Would you take someone back if he cheats on you?
* See the case first... *

Have you talk about marriage with another before?
* I want to... But no one talk to me about that... So, I never talk about it... :p *

Do you want children?
* Haha! Later... When I married *

How many?
* Up to God. *

Would you consider adoption?
* Hope no need... :p*

If someone likes you right now, what do you think is the best way to let you know his feelings?
* Do something to show it. PROVE IT! *

Do you enjoy getting into relationships?
* Haha. If with someone that I like, obviously I'll enjoy it *

Be honest, what is the furthest you and your ex did?
* Haha. For me to know... For you to find out... *

Do you believe in love at first sight?
* See the case first... *

Are you romantic?
* I guess so... Haha! *

Do you believe you can change someone?
* YES, I am... *

If you could get married somewhere, where would it be?
* Hmmm... How about Paris? Haha! Dreaming... *

Do you easily give in when you are fighting?
* Hmm... See the situation first... *

Do you have feelings for someone right now?
* YES I am... *

Have you ever broken a heart?
* Praise to GOD... Never... *

If one day your best friend falls in love with the guy you are deeply in love with, what would you do?
* If the person is my friend, she won't do like that *

Are you missing someone now?
* YES!!! *

Who is the person?
* Hmm... Not in my school at least. Haha! Who? For me to know and for you to guess... Haha! *

Today

2006-10-17T20:39:00.000+08:00

Today... I went to Gleneagles to buy medicine for my uncle in Indonesia... Then I went to Guardian and did hunting for this stupid medicine called "Scholl".... Bloody things... I can't find the cream-scrub from this Scholl... I went to Guardian at Paragon, also can't find... I went to Watson... I only can find Scholl Cream but not Scrub... T_T So sad... Tiring...!

After that I met with my friend. Then talked about a lot of things...

Then I reached home at about 4.30 like that... Online... Then chat with my friends (refers to Eve, Joyce, Nats and Tasia)... =)

PREPARE YOURSELF FOR TOMORROW..... If you still can meet me the next day... It's a good thing... If you never meet me again... You should know what's happening... It's the scariest thing I've ever done...

A lot of consequences I must face if I failed this time around... The consequences made me really really really scared! ...=(... Hua... I don't want to cry like hell tomorrow... Please let me go peacefully... Please... Please.... I can't forgive myself if I failed... T_T...

See you tomorrow. Hope tomorrow is not my last day...

For EVE to Read

2006-10-16T22:07:00.000+08:00

To: EVE

Eve, please don't take too hard about our school's rank thing. It may shocking but, if there is not official statement, please don't panic first. Relax... Breathe in, breathe out... I aslo shocked today, but I just think positively.

(1) There is no official statement (as MOE never state). We can trust something if there is an official statement about it. Although what you said was correct that in front of MOE eyes, all of schools are in the same level (the highest position is RI or/and RGS), therefore MOE will never state the schools' rank. It means that MOE see every schools are in the same level, no higher or lower than the other. Although you are studying in the good school, but if you can't score for your 'O' level, will it be just your shame? Better you study at neighbouring school but you can score a very high marks for your 'O' level, compare with you study at good school but you can't score a good marks for your 'O' level. In the end, every students in Singapore will take the same test, 'O' level, and its marks is NOT depends on our school. Everything is depending on yourself. If you study hard for it, but you study at neighbouring school, you will achieve a better marks then if you study not that hard because you know that you study at good school. Get what I mean?

(2) God placed us in this school, He has His own purpose. He wants us, His children, to be a bless for other people. He wants us to show His glory in this school. He has His own planning for our future by placing us in PYSS. Remember that our God is a good Father. He provide us with all the best things. He grants us a lot of good things. And all of them are the best for us. He knows what should He do to us. He knows what to give to us. When He gives a problem, He knows that you can face it. Because He is a God that knows us very well. He will not give you something that you can't face it. So, if God put you in PYSS, God thinks that this school is the school that you can survive, the school that suitable with you. The school where you can show to everybody His glory. Get what I mean?

If still don't get it then MSN me. OK?

GBU

I forgot to Write This Just Now

2006-10-16T22:00:00.000+08:00

I just remember that I met with FRANKY SIHOMBING this afternoon, ACCIDENTALLY. Yay! Haha... I know it's not that so called fabulous... But yet..., it so fantastic for me... It's a rare oportunity as everybody aslo know that Franky is a quite famous singer in Indonesia (if you're not a christian, probably you don't know)... His songs are nice and meaningful. I bought his healing worship songs and it is NICE and FABULOUS... Haha! Yeah... Yesterday I was crying like hell when I listened to it... It was so touched... All the best for him! His sharing was also good (and very funny! hehe...), very good instead... He "teaches" us in a simple way but it has a very deep meaning. The way he explained something... OK... I know I adore him.. Hehe... But it's normal what...

Today is SUPER FABULOUS!

2006-10-16T19:44:00.000+08:00

OK... Yesterday I was so tired and got headache too. Yesterday was nothing much actually. I took picts with my friends and it was so fabulous! I like the pose and everything but the machine was sucks man... But, who cares? Haha!

TODAY: Yeah.. this afternoon I watched a movie called "Silk". It wans a horror movie and I watched with my friend (you should know who you are). Actually it was not that scary (although it was not that scary but I still did not dare to see the scene and I did hide behind my friend's shoulder... Hehe...) ... Just by then... Its sound effect made us scared and shocked. This movie actually has something for me to learn. It showed how a mother want to reduce her son's pain by killing the son. The mom said that because of her love and she did not want to see her son to suffer in this world, she would strangle her son until his death. Although the way that the mom took was so shocking but actually the mom wanted the best for his son.. Even until both of them died. OMG... This movie was so scary but also fruitful... Nice story... Good meaning... Thanx to choose this movie for me to watch. =)

After that, my friend went home because this person's leg was injured... Actually not really injured, but by then the person can't walk normally. I can't bring my friend to the house because I met with my other friends and my friend who the leg kena injured asked me to just follow my other friends. I was quite worry and pity the person... But, since the person said like that, then I went with my friends lah...

I went with my friends... First I ate first because they (they refers to Natalie, Joyce and Eve) ate already. I ate then we took neoprints then we walked from The Heeren to Plaza Singapura (consider a short distance as yesterday I walked from Plaza Singapura to Far East!). At Plaza Singapura, we took neoprints and then walked around. Then we took MRT to Bedok. We visited the SumoHouse McD. Took a little refreshment and then went home... So nice... Today was fun! Haha! Yay....!

Tomorrow, I'll go to Gleneagles Hospital... Orchard again... I'm going to buy my uncle's medicine (again medicine.... T_T, I think by the time I reach Juanda, the people will "catch" my bag and do the security check!)... Dunno what will happen tomorrow. Will it fun? I also don't know... =) But don't care lah...

RELAX FRIENDS!

2006-10-15T19:12:00.000+08:00

I know that the "die is coming to your way" day is coming soon. It's just about this Wednesday and Thursday. I also scared about that. If I failed in some subjects, I'll need to face a consequences that I really don't want to face.

I really scared. TOTALLY scared and worried. But, I just talked to one of my friends. She is a good comforter. She just told me like this. Have you done your best? If you have done your best, you don't need to worry about anything. You just waste your energy to worry about this matter. What you have done, you can't redo again, although you worried like hell. So... Just relax, don't need to worry so much about it...

You have done your best guys! So... Cheers and relax! Don't stress yourself BEFORE the time!

GBU

Today and Yesterday

2006-10-15T18:54:00.000+08:00

Yesterday I never blogging because I went somewhere for a secret purpose. Haha! What purpose? That's for me to know and for you to guess. Hehe.

TODAY is a remarkable day as today I found almost all of my questions' answers. I went to church not with my guardian. I went the other church. I really enjoy it. I absorbed a lot of things there. I learned a lot of new things. Now, I know what should I do to my ex-friend aka **i**n. I should forgive her. I must love her and can't just hate her. REASON: (1) people always make mistakes. I also make mistake. It just a normal things for people to make mistake, no matter how big is the mistakes. If, I don't have any mistakes at all, then I can just hate her, or even punish her. BUT, as a human, I have made A LOT OF mistakes. Everybody have their own mistakes. (2) based on my GOD's example. We are as human, have A LOT OF sins (until we can't even count it). BUT, GOD still want to forgive us and give us another chance, an endless chance. So, I think I should do what HE does. Be a bless for other people. I just hope that she will really change. I'll always try to do my best as a human. I know that as a human, I'll ever give up, I'll ever change my mind. BUT, I want to try it first. It has been in my mind since a long time already. TODAY, I found the answer as the sermon explained about it.

GOD is good!
GOD is awesome!
GOD is never change!
GOD always here, beside us, and HE never leave us. GOD IS THE WAY, THE TRUTH AND THE LIFE! People may parish but HIS words and HIS kingdom will NEVER parish!

Picts Picts Picts

2006-10-14T07:40:00.000+08:00

Ili and the elephant
CIA and CNA
Sexy Animal Farms -cow-elephant-hippo-monkey-donkey-
Snap before the snap
Family Picts
Act cute...
Moneky gone... dunno go where.... hope she was not lost
CIA - broadcaster - CNA
End of the journey..... Inside the MRT... But we still have the energy to take picts...

Stars of the picts:

(*)P. Nathiya aka monkey

(*) Joyce Lim aka donkey aka chicken aka CNA

(*) Ili Munirah aka Fatimah aka hippo aka Broadcaster

(*) Evelina Larisa aka evil aka elephant

(*) Veronica Elvina aka cow aka tofu aka CIA

^^All pictures are belong to Sexy Animal Farms^^

Don't know how...

2006-10-13T23:52:00.000+08:00

Reasons why I adore You, my God:

You never complain when I complain a lot to You
You always help me to find the best solution when I find a problem
You never leave me alone with my problems
You always be there, whenever I need You
You always can cheer me up
You always forgive me, although I have made a lot of mistakes
You never think about the pass and always see the future
You always comfort me whenever I need it
You always accept me, no matter how imperfect I am
You sacrifice Your only Son just for our safety

God, there are a lot of other things that make me adore You... But, sometimes, I also doubting You. I know I'm wrong God. I know that my faith is not that strong. I just can't stop myself to think about a lot of things. I just can't stop myself to stress myself. I just can't stop myself from doing a lot of things. God, when I'm down, please raise me up. When I feel like give up, please cheer me up. When I have nobody, please accompany me. When I feel like commit to suicide, please just let me do it. Sometimes, I can't take what You want from me... I feel that I'm useless. I just can't do a lot of things. May be, when I'm gone, it'll bring a lot of good things. May be, after I disappear, a lot of things may change to be better. Why I must be born 15 years ago? I know that there is always a nice plan for me and my life... But... After what I see in my life. I know there are happiness and sadness. But, recently, when I feel stress, depressed, sad, angry and frustated. I just see that I AM USELESS in this world. There is no different in this world, when I am or I am not here, in this world. I just nobody. Nobody that have nobody. God, open the eyes of my heart and let me see what should I do. ==Just let me off, please.==

7 things

2006-10-13T20:52:00.000+08:00

Seven things that scares me:
1. God
2. Failure
3. Alone
4. Mistakes
5. People hate me with no reason
6. People neglect me
7. EXAM

Seven random songs at the moment:
1. Hillsong: I give You my heart
2. Michael Learns To Rock: Out of the blue
3. Michael Learns To Rock: Nothing to loose
4. Hillsong: One Way
5. Hillsong: Shout Your fame
6. Michael Learns To Rock: Sleeping Child
7. Black Eyed Peas: My Hump

Seven things that I like the most:
1. laptop
2. HP
3. internet
4. MP3 player
5. novel
6. songs
7. movie (yay!)

Seven important things in my bedroom:
1. Light
2. Bed
3. Pillow
4. Blanket
5. Air Con
6. Mirror
7. Power Supply

Seven random facts about me:
1. fussy
2. moody
3. like to post on Bulletin Board
4. love to take picts
5. easy going (i think so.. hehe)
6. like to debate with people
7. siao

Seven things I said the most:
1. bloody hell
2. so?
3. haiyo!
4. what the tiit...
5. hah?
6. oh liddat ar
7. siao

Seven things that you hate the most:
1. Backstabber
2. Liar
3. "act stupid" person
4. Drama queen
5. EXAM
6. Spammers
7. Illness

Seven things that make you happy:
1. God
2. Good result
3. him
4. My friends
5. my family (although sometimes they make mestress too)
6. Jokes
7. togetherness

Seven things that you want the most:
1. New HP (O2 atom exec)
2. New laptop (Sony please...)
3. MP4 player (iPod video please...)
4. Good result, good marks
5. Finish the tests
6. Somebody
7. Love and care

Seven things you plan to do before you die:
1. say sorry to everybody
2. make announcement abt it
3. fly back to Indonesia
4. find the fastest way to die
5. talk with people that i love the most
6. write a letter explain why i do it
7. pray to God

Seven things that can't be repeated:
1. Baby time
2. Childhood time
3. Past year exam
4. Turn back the time
5. My words that came out from my mouth
6. Test that I have done in the past few days
7. My mistake

Seven wishes:
1. My faith will never gone
2. Pass to sec 4E automatically
3. Pass my Final Year Exam for all subjects
4. Go back to Indonesia peacefully
5. Do manicure with Genevieve
6. Watch movie
7. See somebody happy

My Feeling

2006-10-13T20:38:00.000+08:00

(1) SCARED
Obviously I am. I'm very very very very very very very scared. I don't know what will happen next week. What will happen next 2 weeks. What will happen when I'm in Indonesia. I don't know. I can't predict anything. I just want to "let it flow", ut my heart scare me a lot. I can't think properly. I really don't know. Today I may laugh. Tomorrow, I may smile. Next week, I may cry. Next 2 weeks, I may disappear. Today I may cry. Tomorrow, I may go and bang the wall. Next week, I may smile. Next 2 weeks, I may laugh with joy. I don't know. I can't predict. I'm very scared. It's easy to comfort people, but it's not easy to do it. I may comfort other people, but I can't comfort myself. I just can't stop it. I scared over a lot of things. My result, my relationship with my friends (either special or not special), my future and a lot of other things.

(2) CONFUSED
I don't know what should I do. I don't know which one is the true one. I don't know over a lot of things. I'm very blur now. People make me very blur. I don't know what's going on too. Wo shi zhen de zhen de bu chi dao (dunno correct spelling or not). T_T.....

(3) UNEXPLAINABLE
I don't know how to explain my feeling right now. One minute, I'm happy. In other minute, I'm sad. In other minute, I smile. In other minute, I cry. It just mixed up without knowing what is the best solution for all of these matters. Hua.... Cry cry cry... Die die die.... Die faster lah....

Photo from my Handphone

2006-10-13T20:23:00.000+08:00

Me and Ili inside the MRT. See on my nails, so colourful! Hehe...
Me, Ili and Eve inside my condo's lift
Joyce - Nats - Me
Joyce - Nats - Ili
Ili and me....

WE ARE PHOTO MANIA!!! Yay! Hehe

YAY!

2006-10-13T19:13:00.000+08:00

I'M BACK! Hohoho.... OK, let's me recall ALL my stuffs since I never blogging for almost 2 weeks.

02-10-2006 : English Paper. I really scared for this subject. I don't know what will happen to me. T_T... I'm so scared. I just try my best to do all the question. I scared that I'll disappointed over my result. After all my effort for English.

03-10-2006 : Malay Paper. I hope I can pass it very well. Recently got a lot of people asking whether I'm a malay or chinese. Stupid question lah... Obviously I'm a chinese. I have chinese name, so... of course I'm a chinese! Why I take Malay and not Chinese Language? Because I don't want to take risk. If I can pass my Malay test better than Chinese paper, why should I choose Chinese Language? So... Please, don't ask me such of this stupid question again. OK?

06-10-2006 : Social Studies. OK.... I read my textbook in chapter of Northern Ireland thing. And... I hope my teacher will ot fussy enough to make failed. Actually I have a chance to pull up my mark, but.... because of that incident, I lost the chance... Don't know what to comment. Something that have done can not be undone. So, although I complain, there is no use. I just waste my energy.

09-10-2006 : Geography Electives AND A Math. Die die die die die. Geography had not enough time to do it. A Math questions VERY VERY VERY difficult. Damn it lah... And LLP's reaction today showed that the A Math test result may be a "DISASTER". OK... Just hope the best for it man! I still very scared anyway.

10-10-2006 : Pure Physics. OK... This one surely die. Ah Chua will not let us stay alive after come out from the classroom. His test paper scary enough to kill us on the spot! =(... MCQ looked like easy, but it full with tricky questions. Hmm... Hope, I did not make any stupid - careless mistakes.

11-10-2006 : E Math. Hmm... Paper 1: successful. I only can't do the indices and surds question. And there is one more question at the graph (the last number) and the ratio of the mass thing. So total for paper 1, I may lost a bit of marks only. And I have enough time to redo all the questions total 3 times. Paper 2: Question 3 of paper 2 was more likely Physics question then E Math question! I don't know what's going on. They never state whether the water flow and the boat are moving in the same direction or not. They only state that the boat's speed are the same throughout the journey (so I take it as constant). They never state the resultant force, etc. Really stuck there. OK, forget about E Math test. Hope can pass it very well too.

13-10-2006 : Pure Chemistry. Hmm... No comment about it. Just see how the result. No speculation, no expectation. I just scared to be disappointed again. It's very hard to accept. It's very hard to understand. I don't want to feel the bitterness again. I'm very scared.

SPECIAL ACKNOWLEDGE: (1) for my family. Thanx to support me through out all the test time. I just scared to disappoint you all. Just 2 sentences for you, "Prepare for the worse thing to be happened. Something that you may never imagine, something that worse then failure." (2) for somebody. Thanx for all your support. Thanx for your motivation for me. Thanx to always be there when I need you. Thanx to always support me when I was in my lowest point in my term 4 life. Thanx for everything that you have done for me. Thanx to always help me out from my problems. Thanx to give me a lot of advices for me to be a better person. Thanx for your care for me. I really appreciate it. You should know who you are. (3) for my friends. Thanx for all your support all the way. Specified name: Joyce (unexpected name!), Nathiya, Evelina, Genevieve and Zhi Ying. Thanx to give me all the supports. Really appreciate it! =)...

GBU

ANNOUNCEMENT

2006-09-26T20:09:00.000+08:00

YOUR ATTENTION PLEASE:

THERE WILL NOT BE ANY UPDATE FROM NOW ONWARDS UNTIL THIS WEEKEND (OR PROBABLY UNTIL THE END OF MY FINAL YEAR EXAM)

SORRY FOR THE INCONVENIENCE CAUSED

I'LL TRY TO UPDATE ASAP

CHEERS,

THANX FOR YOUR KIND ATTENTION

==eLviNa==

[veronica.elvina.gunawan@gmail.com]

WATCH OUT!

2006-09-26T19:39:00.000+08:00

Please loh... You hurt people so many times and yet you still do the same thing again?? YOU'RE SUCH AN IRRITATING PERSON AND YET STILL COMMENT A LOT OF THINGS! Without your boyfriend, you are NOTHING! Now, you see youself lah... Inside the classroom! Do you feel the same like last time? Do feel the same??? WAKE UP! Last Friday you said (1)"I may hurt you but that doesn't mean you deserve the right to hurt me." (2)"I can't put you inside the group because you was sick physically." AND today you said that I don't have my common sense!

Let's me explain what the person mean by common sense using the real thing that happened just now. This afternoon, Genevieve, Zhi Ying, Lay Hoon, Joyce and me were walking to the MLC because we wanted to put our bags there while waiting for the Chem Class to start. When I opened the door, she and the boyfriend were inside, didn't know what they were doing inside there. After a few moment, we decided to go in and play card. When I entered the room, I felt that my handphone was vibrating, a sign that somebody either SMS or call me. So, I checked it. AND it was SMS from the person, telling me that there is no duty onwards from this week. Excuse me, I went to MLC NOT to do my duty, but just wanna play there. IF you wanna reserve the room for both of you only and do whatever you wanna do, say lah. IF you don't want us to disturb you, say lah. No need to use such of these ways! IF you really wanna tell me that there is no duty from tomorrow onwards you can just tell me straight away, FACE TO FACE and no need to use SMS! FYI, I knew already when LLP told us that there will not be any duty from today onwards. You just wanna try to shoo us out of the MLC, right?

Just now I send you a clarification SMS and you answered that I don't have my common sense. I told you that I came into the room was 13.35 and I received the SMS on 13.38. Do you think you need 3 mins to send SMS from 1 m distance? USE YOUR OWN COMMON SENSE! You said I don't have any evidence, I can show you the evidence! A LOT! I came in with 4 other people and all of them also know what time it was. YOU? ONLY 1 PERSON WILL HELP YOU! AND IT ALSO YOUR BOYFRIEND WHICH ALWAYS HELP YOU! Just now you wished,"Just now that it'll get back to you one day." What thing will get back to me? WHAT? I just tell the truth and try to clarify with you and your answers like that? What kind of person are you? You are fasting you know! And yet... you still like this...

There are a lot of more information that I can't put all here. This place won't enough. 3 things that I wish, (1) you won't backstab me by took him from me, (2) you will realise that without your boyfriend you are nothing, (3) you will still remember what you said about friendship (basically, friends are not important compare to the boyfriend)...

==END OF WARNING==

Madness Caused by TONNES of ASSIGNMENTS! ==Done!==

2006-09-26T18:19:00.000+08:00

SUNDAY: went to church wore this attire. Don't know nice or not...
MONDAY MORNING: Ready to go to school. New hairstyle to go to school (I can't let down my hair... otherwise, LLP will lecture me for the whole 3 hrs!)
MONDAY AFTERNOON: At Nats' house.. Need to do something with her...
MONDAY AFTERNOON: Excited over something... (no lah... Excited because of the earring was suit me quite well! Haha!)
FINAL PHOTO: The best pict I can take at Nats' house... No comment... Haha!

P.s. JOYCE: I'll print the Geo project for you... BUT... buy me something then. Haha! Deal?

Photo Madness Request by English Master

2006-09-26T17:58:00.000+08:00

Hmm... I hope this one will answer all the requests. Haha! L-R = Joyce aka donkey, Nathiya de Papaya de Nata de coco aka monkey and Elvina aka cow... Comment: Joyce act cute, Nats and Elv looked like so calm (but actually my hand was shivering. Haha!)

==DONE==

CNA please replort to CIA after reading this special posts!

MUST DO???

2006-09-24T19:49:00.000+08:00

NAME TEN PAST TIMES
(1) Did Geography Project
(2) Tution
(3) Slept
(4) Lunch
(5) Filing all my craps
(6) Went to church
(7) Breakfast
(8) Took a shower
(9) Woke up late... (Thanx aunty... you woke me up on time)
(10) Slept

NAME NINE PEOPLE YOU KNOW
(1) Eve
(2) Joyce
(3) Ili
(4) Nathiya
(5) Sue Ting
(6) Li Bing
(7) Lay Hoon
(8) Genevieve
(9) Zhi Ying

NAME EIGHT SONGS YOU LIKE
(1) One Way
(2) Shout Your Fame
(3) Here I Am To Worship
(4) Shout To The Lord
(5) Everyday
(6) I Give You My Heart
(7) All The Heavens
(8) Worthy Is The Lamb

NAME 7 PEOPLE ON YOU MSN CONTACT
(1) Eve
(2) Joyce
(3) Ili
(4) Nathiya
(5) Genevieve
(6) Zhi Ying
(7) Lay Hoon

NAME SIX MOVIES YOU LOVE
(1) John Tucker Must Die
(2) Devils Wear Prada
(3) My Ex Super Girlfriend
(4) Harry Potter
(5) The Passion of The Christ
(6) Greatest Story Ever Told

NAME FIVE BRANDS YOU LOVE
(1) Gucci
(2) Louis Vuitton
(3) Burberry
(4) Yves Saint Laurent
(5) Versace

NAME FOUR BOOKS YOU LOVE
(1) Shopaholic Takes Manhattan
(2) Shopaholic and Sister
(3) Shopaholic Ties The Knot
(4) All Chicken Soup Series

NAME THREE BLOGS YOU GO TO
(1) Eve's
(2) Joyce's
(3) Ce Melissa's

NAME TWO WISHES
(1) I wanna meet him, NOW
(2) I can pass to sec 4E (promotion!)

NAME ONE OF THE PERSON YOU RUN TO WHEN YOU ARE SAD
(1) My Lord aka my Father aka my Saviour aka my JESUS

<...-=GBU=-...>

Happy Birthday ILI

2006-09-24T17:44:00.000+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY ILI
HAPPY BIRTHDAY ILI
HAPPY BIRTHDAY ILI DE MOONIRAH
HAPPY BIRTHDAY ILI............

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO ILI, hope that all your wishes will come true and you will get *someone* soon... =)

Always wish the best for you...

Cheers,
-eLviNa-

Please take note: there will not be any update until the next weekend. Sorry for the inconvenience caused. Yesterday I updated 2 posts and today 1, enough for this week. Hope you understand my feeling! =) Thank you for your understanding. =)

<..-=GBU=-..>

LOVE is so FABULOUS!

2006-09-23T19:20:00.000+08:00

When you read it, I want you to realise how I care about you, how I like you and how I love you.

I trust you that you will not hurt me as my friend hurt me. I trust you that you can lead me to the correct paths. I trust you that you can give me the best solution (in maths context and not in chemistry context) whenever I need it. I trust you that I can rely on you whenever I feel I'll fall.

I do hope the best for you. I just wanna see you happy. I just wanna see you get your own freedom. I just wanna see you in your victory smile and not in your tears. I never hope to see you in your sad face. BUT, if one day you send me sms or you call me and tell me that you are in a bad situation or you are in sad mood, I'll be there for you.

If one day, you wanna cry. TELL ME. I never promise that I can cheer you up, but at least I can cry with you. May be cry as loud as you do.
If one day, no one want to listen to you and your problems. TELL ME. I never promise that I can help you with your problems, but at least I can be very quiet and listen to all of your problems.
If one day, you feel like wanna commit to suicide. TELL ME. I never promise that I can save you, but at least when you are dying, I'll be there, beside you.
BUT, if one day, you call me or you send me sms and I never reply or I never pick up the phone, please come faster to me, may be I need you more than what you think. May be I'm in my crucial stage. May be I'm very desperate and frustated. I want you to be there with me... Please be there, be with me...

Time that we spent together, SMS that we send to each other, call that we make for each other, solution that we find together, care that we give to each other. I don't want to loose it. I want it to be something that eternal and never last. We may not be together forever, but at least I know that I have somebody... Somebody that I can depend on. Somebody that always be there for me. Somebody that never forget about my presence. Somebody that can treasure me as a whole.

Hope when you read it, you will realise how important you are for me. How I can die without you. Hope when you read it, you will know that you have somebody to talk to you, listen to ALL of your problems, cry with you whenever you wanna cry, together with you whenever you need me, be there beside you whenever you ask me to do so.

Please, don't disappoint me like what my friend did to me. I know you can do that. I know that you won't disappoint me. I know that you can make me satisfied. I know YOU WILL. I never aim to high to stead with you. I just wanna be one of the closest and the most important person in your life.

Thanx to understand me. Thanx for everything. Thanx... Don't stay away from me... I need you, I really need you. When I don't have anybody around me, I know that I still have you with me. Thanx... Thanx... I'm very blessed to know and having you in my life. Praise to the Lord to show His mercy on me through you. =)

=GBU=

Sickening!

2006-09-23T10:17:00.000+08:00

I know you may read all what I will write here. But, I don't care! I just want you to know my feelong, my opinion about it and STOP begging me!

First of all, you told a lie abt the fact in your phy pro group! You said they never do anything but in fact they asked you and offered their help! And you even said that you want to do the project with you father! Do you think that your father is schooling with you and one group with you??? Why you need to lie to me abt this thing? This small-tiny-little thing?? I can't believe it!

Second of all, I know it has been a long time already. BUT, I still need the truth! The truth that come out from your mouth and not others! If you really the one who sacked me out of the group, say! Don't use other people's name or don't try to modify the story! Your effort will be useless! Do I need to put our conversation here? The most confusing conversation that I had with people! Do I need to show people how not consistent your answer is? Do I need to show to people that you change your mind easily? DO I NEED TO??

Third of all, I don't want you to backstab me like you backstab your BESTFRIEND since SEC 1! She like this guy and you took away the guy from her. You dare enough to do that to your bestfriend, you own bestfriend, who always help you! If you dare enough to do that to her, I don't see any possibility for you not to do that to me too! Do you know how is the feeling? I know that you quite jealous to me because I'm quite close to your bf and now you want to make me feel the jealousness! OK!

Fourth of all, about the SS thing! Now, I feel guilty to the whole class! To the whole class 303 population, I'm so sorry that I gave information to the wrong person, the person that I think I can believe but in fact, the person hurt my trust on her. I'm really sorry that I make you lost all your good marks. I also lost my marks fyi. I really can;t believe to what you did to me! I told you not to tell our dearest teacher, but yet, just 10 MINS after that, you told her! You really hurt me!!! I felt bad to the whole class. I made them lost their marks!

Fifth of all, just now u send me sms. You said, "I did hurt a lot of people, but that doesn't mean you deserve the right to furt me." Girl, who do you think you are? Do you think you are a super girl that allow you to hurt people and not allow people to hurt you back? How selfish you are! If you said like that, that's mean Newton's Third Law is wrong! "For every action there is an equal and opposite reaction." DON'T HURT PEOPLE IF YOU DON'T WANT PEOPLE TO HURT YOU!

Finally, the sixth point that I have for you. I CAN'T TRUST YOU ANYMORE AND I CAN'T GIVE YOU ANOTHER CHANCE. 2 days ago I gave you 2nd and the last chance to change. But, what did you do? You just blowed it up yesterday, which was only 26 hours since the SS incident! You prove to me that I can't give you any chance again. You prove to me that what the rest about you is the correct thing. They told me the truth. And I made a mistake by trusting you instead of trusting them. I made a mistake by giving you another chance while the rest warned me so many times already. Now I know who are you and what kind of person are you. You really hurt me a lot!

Don't say that I'm cruel because I'm not friend you anymore. In fact you are cruel, more cruel than me. You hurt a lot of people and yet still say that we don't deserve to hurt you. Don't say I never give you a chance because I gave you chance already but you made my free chance for you became useless by what you did yesterday. Don't say that I changed a lot because all of us also realised that you that we knew last time is different with you that we knew right now. You said that you change for the better, but you are having more problems than before, is this what you mean by change for the better? If you are in the correct place, you don't need to scared with what I write! BUT, if you are in the wrong place, you may want to start to scared from now onwards. Last time I said, "People are not stupid enough to trust other people say without see the truth and the fact."

For people who can't believe with what I wrote here, you may ask me for the evidence and I'll show you everything. For the sms thing, I'll save it in my phone forever so that you people can read it on your own! For the rest, you may want to ask my friends (total you can ask at least 5 of my friends about all what I wrote here) and they will explain to you and make you shock!

PLEASE DON'T HURT ME SOME MORE! YOU HURT ME ENOUGH! YOU WANT TO ARGUE WITH ME OVER THIS THING, FEEL FREE TO CALL ME!

P.s. Do you think by saying sorry, you can heal the hurt? Yes you can if you just do your mistake for the first time. But, if you do it for the time... Better don't say sorry anymore. You just waste your time and you just hurt people more. I can't trust your apologise! I can't trust you anymore!

Attention Please

2006-09-17T17:35:00.000+08:00

Attention to everybody!

IMPORTANT ANNOUNCEMENT:

--There will NOT be any update until next weekend due to packed schedule and school activities--

Thank you for your understanding...

Sorry for the inconvenience caused.

<...-+=*GBU*=+-...>

-eLviNa-

T_T T_T T_T T_T

2006-09-15T19:12:00.000+08:00

Huaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa................................ I cry! You know what??? My handphone my sent to Nokia Hospital at Parkway Parade! T_T ...... I can't send any SMS! I can't receive any SMS! I can't call people! I can't receive any call! AND the worst part is........... ALL OF MY MEMORY WILL BE DELETED!!!! Oh My God!!! I can't stand it man... T_T.... Live without my handphone for 23 hours is a BAD thing! I can die without my handphone!!! T_T... So sad...

Today got a lot of sad things happened. First of all, early in the morning, before 9 o'clock, Shikin got called from her mother to tell her that her grandmother just passed away. I'm so sorry to hear that. I knew that she will not feel OK. Then, Shikin took Pink Form and left the class. When I walked to Malay Class, I saw Shikin sat in front of the General Office, alone and cried. I ran to my class, put my bag and asked permission from my teacher and I ran to the 1st floor (from 3rd floor, good that I never fall down just now). I hug her and tried my best to comfort her and both of us waiting for Shikin's father came and picked her up. When she was inside the car, her face still red and she still cried... After she left school, I went back to class and attend my lesson as usual.

Second of all, my handphone can't display anything at the LCD! Only white light! That's all. So sad man... T_T... So, I decided to go to Parkway Parade after attending the "funeral" of the Shikin's grandmother with JLKJ. OMG. I think Shikin really need JLKJ 24 hours beside her... She looks more relax when JLKJ beside her. When the bus left her house, JLKJ and me decided to go to Parkway Parade and we walked there and we talked about a lot of stuffs and he asked me how to do this and how to do that (in relationship case). Reached Nokia Hospital, the doctor said that my phone will be upgraded and ALL the memory will be DELETED! Huaaa.... T_T... So sad leh... All the nice SMS that I kept purposely will be DELETED! T_T... My VVVI contacts number also will be DELETED! Huaaa.... So sad... I think after this I'll need ask people one by one for their number! =( ... So sad....

Third of all, I think Shikin got jealous to me... Shikin.... I'll never like JLKJ! He went with me because he wanted to talk to me about something and not because of other things. Please... don't be mistaken... From the way you replied his messages I think you quite jealous and angry. I know you quite sensitive now, but please don't be mistaken... JLKJ never do anything with me and he doesn't have any feeling to me. His heart is yours, fully yours! As you know, I have somebody already. Just ME. You know what I mean. I like and love somebody else and you also know the person, so don't get jealous easily! OK?

Cheers girl!

=GBU=

Happy B'day

2006-09-14T19:44:00.000+08:00

Happy Birthday Nathiya
Happy Birthday Nathiya
Happy Birthday Nathiya
Happy Birthday Nathiya......................

HAPPY BIRTHDAY NATHIYA! Hope you get your wish come true soon! Haha! =)

I always wish the best for you anyway! Haha! See you tomorrow!

HAPPY BIRTHDAY NATHIYA (14.09.2006)

My Fav Sentence nowadays

2006-09-14T19:20:00.000+08:00

On my friendster, somebody got asked me, what is my favourite sentence. OK.. My answer is: "When I realised that I like you, I know that I love you with the true love just for you." I like that phrase so much. Even if I can't concentrate upon something, I stil can recall that sentence correctly without failed. A lot of people try to test me before.

I'm falling in ove with someone now... I can't tell you the name here (obviously!), because I'm afraid later he go and check by himself. Then, die lah me. He is not a very special person. He just an usual person that I knew long time already (at least more than 1 year already). He always be there, always patient, always nice to me. May be I'm a foolish girl, may be I just bluffed by him. But, I don't know why, I still like him. When I know that I like him, I realised that my feeling is more than *like* only, it became *love*. Day after day, he shows a lot of thing to me. He shows something that other people never show to me. It's more than care. When I realised it, I knew that my *love* only now change to the kind of *true love* for me. Hmm... I don't know how to express it.

As almost all my friends in my class know (at least Shikin, Nathiya, Joyce, Zhi Ying, Genevieve, Eve and Lay Hoon) about who is the person, I just have 1 message here. I hope I still can be with "you" again. I want to be with you, as long as possible. I want you to sit beside me whenever I need you. I want you to lend me your shoulder for me to cry. I want you to lend me your ear to listen to all of my complains. I want you to be there for me, forever. I hope I still can see you. I hope I still have an oportunity to be with you again. I want that. That's the only wish that I have for now. I only want you. Miss you so much! Muackzz... -xxxXxxx-

The love is in the air... Everywhere I look around
The love is in the air... Whenever I look around

Just hope that finally my time come to me, so that I can be with you! Hmmphs... I'll be very patient, waiting for you, from now onwards. People may say, go stead asap. But, if I need to wait for you for a long time to get you, I'll do it. I may wait for 1 day, 1 week, 1 month, 1 year or even more than 1 year. But, my commitment is there, I want to wait for you, until you say don't like me, then I'll move back and forget about you. But, if you never tell me that sentence, I'll just go ahead and I'll try to get you! I want you to be mine!

-GBU-

The Love is In The Air!

2006-09-13T20:34:00.000+08:00

The love is in the air, every where I look around! Hmm... First, Lee Wu Yu and Tan Zhi Ying. Second, Eric and Genevieve. Everybody are falling in love now. The love is in the air now. Even for me... I also falling in love now. Hahaha... With who ar? Hmm... Somebody lah! (P.s. for whom know who is the person's name, don't put the name when you give me a comment ar! :p) Somebody that very special... Hahaha... Don't wanna put the name here lah... Later the person see then how? Die lah me...

Today, went to school, so sleepy! My medicines still work lah... Aiyah.. Don't care abt it! Stay back at school, to go to MLC, do nothing there. I just accompanied a couple who still fall in love "hotly". Aiyah... And the guy can't stop laughing sia... He looked at my face and he laughed already.. Until the face got very red!

After that, go to BK... Accompanied Zhi Ying, Genevieve, Lay Hoon, Nicodemus and Eric. Talked about a lot of stuffs there. And then went home and checked e-mail. Hmm.. tiring sia.. Having a lot of e-mail addresses are really make me tired! :p. But I have no choice. If I only have 1 e-mail address, it'll explode as the capacity is not big enough! =(

-GBU-

P.s. so tired! Hmm... Got nothing to say lah! :p

Our Photo Madness! Huahaha! =)

2006-09-12T20:04:00.000+08:00

OMG... Ili, your smile ar... so cute! Hahaha... =p (don't be offended ar... peace...) =)
Ili with her name: ILI. Iodine and Lithium married together to produce an ILI. Don't know what is the valency!
Ili aka de Moonirah took her photo with her name with MLC's decoration! Hmm.. Kinda vandalism! :p
Attention guys! Camera is here! Cheese! =)
Shikin and me... Ooops... Got Ili behind! Extra part sia... Hehehe... No lar... Just kidding! =)
Chem class: We must very serious..... to take pictures! Hahaha... What Ili aka de Moonirah's hand do behind us ar? Zahidah... no need to worry about us! We mad to take picts already lah...
Chem class. Ili: dunno how to do the question sia... Think think think... Zahidah: ask Zachary lah... Elvina: take picture lah! =) :p
Equally MAD about taking photo! Elv and Shikin
Math Counsellors Maddnes
Little bit squeezy (dunno correct spelling or not)... BUT... Still smile! =)
4 of us at the Maths Learning Centre. Front (L-R) Elv - Eve. Back (L-R) Shi - Ili

My Photo MADNESS!!! Hahaha =)

2006-09-12T19:43:00.000+08:00

Jesus is my Saviour. He is the everlasting water of life. He always keep His eyes on me. =) Thanx God! =)
I never calculate the angle of depression from the camera to me. :p Whose shoes in black? Answer: Ili aka de Moonirah. :p
Hmm... Before serious do something, must take a pict first. Cheese! =)
I'm very serious when I do something. Evidence? This photo! :p
Keep a big smile for the camera! (What my chem TYS do behind me?)
Ready to explain "Coordinate Geometry". Do come and the we'll explain for you! Haha! =)
Wanna do best in Math? Practice more! We have a lot of test paper from the past years. Come to MLC! =)
Me at the Maths Learning Centre (the yellow page is the Maths Learning Centre opened officially letter by our principal, Mrs. Julia Woo)

Michael Schumacher will Retire

2006-09-11T17:21:00.000+08:00

Aaa... It's another news that make me shock! Michael Schumacher will retire.. =( Last Sunday was his last race in front of all the tifosi (Tifosi=Ferrari's mania) at Italia (Ferrari's hometown)! So sad... Yesterday he announced that he wanted to retire and he gave his possition to Kimi Raikkonen! Wow... It's really shocking man! Schumi -Michael Schumacher's nick- is a VERY GOOD driver ever at F1 history man! And he just 37 years old leh... Although he is the oldest driver at F1, but if he competitive enough, so what? He should not retire!!! Oh my God.... This news really shocking me.. Since I like Schumi since I was 10 years old! His records are unbeatable! No one can beat his record! World's champion for 7 TIMES!!! He won his 90th champion at Monza, yesterday. 90 times you know! OMG! It's really unbelievable! I can't believe it man! He is to good to retire now. But, Kimi Raikkonen and Felipe Massa? I'm not sure they can do something for Ferrari man! But, let's see next year! Whether Ferrari still can survive or not! With yesterday result, Ferrari lead the driver constructionship! GOOD!!! Since last time, when Schumi partner with Rubens Barrichello, Ferrari has their big name. Then since last year or this year (I'm not sure, sorry) Schumy partner with Felipe Massa. Not bad! Massa got his 1st championship I think 2 races before Monza's race. I do hope Kimi Raikkonen can be as good as Schumi! Ferrari's big name future are on their hand now... Hmm... I do hope Schumi will cancel his mind and he wants to race somemore for Ferrari!

-GBU-

P.s Michael Schumacher's Records

He started his carrier as F1 racer on 1991. Until now, he has participating for 247 GP, with 245 starts! From 247 GP, he had done 147 with Ferrari and win for 90 GP! A number that very impossible to be beaten until the end of the day! He has 68 pole positions and 57 fastest laps record and 1354 points (the most until now)! Oh my God! It's so unbelievable! Fantastic numbers! And he is one of the most expensive driver ever paid in the F1 history. Ferrari paid him MORE THAN US$ 30 million every year! We haven't count if he got bonus! OMG! It's so fantastic about his retirement decision. But yet, it his decision, we must respect it! =) By the way, he will still work for Ferrari, although not as a driver anymore. May be a test-driver also can... Ferrari will announce it at the end of this 2006 season.

9-11 == 4.55

2006-09-11T17:02:00.000+08:00

I just woke up. The time now is 4.55 P.M. I just being updated about a lot of shocking news. Hmm... I also don't know what to do and what to comment and what to react. The thing is very complicated, more complicated than what you think. And the thing is very difficult. Put a lot of people in different position with different difficulties stage. I also don't know what to say about it. I do hope the best for you guys. No matter what is your decision, I'll just go ahead with you all. I still your friend anyway. I do hope there is a good solution for all of us. I don't want changes between us, but yet, all of the decision yours. I only can hope and pray for the best, but everything is yours. You do what you wanna do. Hope you people are mature enough to think about it clearly, hope you people calm enough to give the best solution about it and hope you people cool enough to decide something. I have nothing to say, I have nothing to comment, I just believe that you can go through this tough situation! =)

(1) Think what will be the effect, when you decide something.
(2) Will it hurt anybody else?
(3) Is this the best solution you can make?
(4) If you confident enough that the decision is the best, just go ahead with it. BUT don't run away from it when a problem come from it!

Hope the best!

Cheers,
Elvina

-GBU-

Doctor

2006-09-11T14:24:00.000+08:00

Today, I went to doctor at Tampines Polyclinic and the queue made me died slowly man. I got headache already and yet they asked me to wait for almost 20 mins to queue. My queue number is 2507, when I came to the waiting room, the number was still 2453. It made me waiting for a long time. I got headache already leh... And yet, they asked me to wait for a long time. Then finally my turn, they asked me to produce my IC, then I said I forgot to bring my student pass and EZ-Link card, fortunately I brought my other doctor's appointment card, at the appointment card, it showed my Student Pass number and my address clearly. Yay... They allowed me to see the doctor (my dearest guardian told me that Polyclinic is ONLY for Singaporean and PR only). There, at the doctor's waiting room, I must wait for quite a long time! Hmm... And I kena by the AC for a long time, make me can't move sia... Then see the doctor and he said that I need a lot of rest! OK... My body temperature is 37.8 degree Celcius. Then he gave me the presticious MC (I love MC man! It saves me from PE!) and the medicines. I went to the pharmacy, wow... got so meny people down there! Hmm... I need to wait for at least 15 mins. But then I got my medicines and paid it! =)

Actually I wanna go to Bedok NTUC clinic, but then I don't know the address. My dear Ms. Lenny never tell me the full address, so I can't go there. Anyway the doctor was much cheaper than my 24 hrs doctor that my guardian showed me. It 75% cheaper! Wow... OK...

I took the medicines after I reached home. The medicine said it will make me feel sleepy but in fact, I never feel sleepy.. =(. I wanna go to school tomorrow. It'll be fun! Yay... Got a lot of stories. Huahaha... Especially about somebody that I like! Hehehe... Go and wait for my story gals! Huahaha...

OK.. After this, I think I should off and leave my afternoon alone. I will sleep again for my goodness sake. OK... whatever... I heared that tomorrow must bring PE attire, hmm... for what sia... Wasting time, wasting clothes... Don't care lah... I'll just go home straight away after my chem class! I need a lot of rest anyway! =)

-GBU-

THINK!

2006-09-11T14:19:00.000+08:00

Wanna comment about other people, better think first! Don't just say what the thing inside your brain and never think about other people's feeling. Tall, so what? Short, so what? Super skinny and bonny, so what? Fat, so what? So quiet, so what? Talkative, so what? Before say something, better you think first! Whether the thing will irritate people or not. Think always!

If you don't want people talk bad thing about you, don't talk about bad thing about other people too. If you don't want people angry to you, don't make them angry too. For every reaction there is AN EQUAL AND OPPOSITE reaction. In other words, action = reaction. You steal something from people, other people will steal something from you. Action = reaction = karma.

Hope the best for you! Hope you will think first before do something! =)

-GBU-

Really SICK man

2006-09-10T20:22:00.000+08:00

I feel sick now.. Really sick... I can't open my eyes anymore. I really not feeling good now... Aaa... I don't wanna sick! I wanna be healthy! If I sick, I can't go anywhere, I can't meet with people. :'(

God, please help me... Although I wanna relax for awhile and wanna take a rest because last week I can't relax at all, I still wanna go to school. I need to tell something to somebody. Something that very important about a decision. Please God, let me go... If I can't tell them tomorrow, probably I'll bring them to the wrong choices! God... Please help me... I need to tell them...

Anyway God, do I need to absent from school tomorrow? Half of myself asked me to absent and then sleep at home and then go to doctor and then the next day I go to school. But half of myself wanna go to school tomorrow and forget about myself aka dun care about myself. Which one I should choose?

God, help me to choose the best please... I need Your help to choose my choice.. Please, help me Lord...

-GBU-

Blessing Day For Me

2006-09-10T18:56:00.000+08:00

Beginning of today: I must wake up at 5.40 but my maid woke me up at 5.30. WHne I realised that I woke up to early, I can't sleep anymore. So, I decided to call Zhi Ying 5 times as I promised to her to give her morning calls to wake her up. Then took a shower and did everything as usual. Reached school the first, then I went to 7-11, need to buy top up card for my dearest phone (if not, I can't contact with all people, recently my phone is very busy to call and sms a lot of people). Then saw Joyce came out from a car. Then talked. 7.10 (my watch) left the school in a bus, only 22 people from 303 came! OK.. Then walked at ECP and reached there. And they did the launching healthy thing. And of course, we took photo as shown above!

THEN: Mr. Wong Kan Seng came and we all did the funny so called chicken leg dance and whatever. So fun! Hahaha... Good man! Then around 9 plus, Eve and me asked Mr. Teo permission to go and he said OK. SO GOOD!

Middle of the day: Eve and me went to church. We can follow the 1st service anyway. Then we sat the most in front sit (because we are good girls! :p)... 2nd service, another fun! A lot of things that blessed me today and all from the pastor's sermon! That's good! =). After the 2nd service finished, I introduced Eve to everybody in the church! And everybody welcomed her as well. Ko Robby and Marka showed the most welcome attitude while the rest like "so so, OK lah... I know her".

Then: We took our lunch and after that I talked to Marka about something that very very very very serious about something that very very very very secret. :p. Hehehe... Then we all went to the MRT station (Somerset) and we talked again there (I think all NBC-ans like to talk alot including me!). When the train came actually I wanted to change my mind and follow Aleng they all to Toa Payoh to play badminton (I still can play badminton, but must play double), but then, Marka pushed me to go, then I cancelled my mind lah... I went with Eve to go back. And the whole journey we both talked about speak in tongue language (sorry, you won't know about it unless you are a christian). Eve had her first experience about talking in tongue language. And I think she can maintain and improve it. =).

Reached Kembangan: Eve alighted and I still inside the train. My mind was not there, I was so tired already (fortunately Marka asked me to go home and not to follow Aleng they all, if not, may be I die already now...).

Reached Bedok: I alighted, I took money first and then I went to the taxi stand. I bought coke and drank it. AND I didn't close the seal tightly... WTH?? OK, don't care lah... Just spilled my bag a bit, I guess tomorrow I can use my bag again! =)

Reached home: online for a while, since my guardian open her wireless connection. Then I checked my inbox and A LOT OF MESSAGES (187 e-mails!) waiting for me! Then I went to friendster to approve Zhi Ying's testimonial. Then I went sleep, I'm so tired. Fortunately I cancelled my tution already. If not... I'm sure I can't concentrate already... Then, I slept for awhile and I woke up at 6.45.

After wake up: straight away I switched on the heater after that I check my e-mail, I got 3 new messages waiting for me in just a few hours! OK.. No comment about it. :p Then, I took a shower... Wah, I felt like rejoiced like that! =)

Then: my guardian called me to take my dinner and I came out lah.. My voice when talked to her was so heavy, like sick lick that. And when I ate my dinner, I felt like burning like that. So hot... I think I got fever lah...

After dinner: I sent sms to Marka and mama, to inform them. ><" Hmm.. mama asked me to online, then I'm online now lah... Pyuh... I don't know whether tomorrow I can go to school or not. =( Hmm... I don't feel good leh...

See tomorrow lah... My mom asked me to take 2 pills of decolgen and then sleep. But, the thing is that I don't want to do so... I need to do a lot of other things. =( And I don't think my teacher will understand if I never bring my assignment! It's a difficult choice anyway... =(

P.s. Bible for today about *Speak in Tongues*

Acts 1:8
Acts 10:45-46
1 Corinthians 14:2
1 Corinthians 14:4
1 Corinthians 14: 15-17
1 Corinthians 14: 21
Rome 8:16
Rome 8:26
Jude 20
James 3:8
Isaiah 28:11-12

-GBU-

Shout To The Lord

2006-09-09T17:40:00.000+08:00

My JESUS, my Saviour
Lord there is none like You
All of my days, I want to praise
The wonders of Your mighty love

My comfort, my shelter
Tower of refuge and strength
Let every breath, all that I am
Never cease to worship You

Shot to the Lord all the earth let us sing
Power and majesty, praise to the King
Mountains bow down and the seas wil roar
All the sound of Your name

I sing for joy at the work of your hands
Forever I love YOU, forever I'll stand
Nothing compares to the promise
I have in You

======Praise and Worship Him, HILLSONG, AUSTRALIA======

-GBU-

My Very Very Very Important Stuffs Photos :p

2006-09-09T14:29:00.000+08:00

My new medicines (take for Monday ONLY) specially for Chemistry and A Math class (cos I never move for 3 hours, my backbone will be aching like hell, therefore the doctor gave me this medicines)
2 books that I bought yesterday. The Devil Wears Prada (I watched the movie already, but I still curious with the content of the book!) and Deception Point by Dan Brown (My English teacher suggested to us to read this kind of book)
4 nail polishes: Glittery Blue, Soft Purple (to go to school, really no difference), Soft Pink (to go school, really no difference) and Bright Pink (for my toe nails)
2 CDs that helped me a lot when I almost lost my faith (you should by too, there are a lot of good songs)
My new headset by Sony. Hmm... I hope I won't cut it again (accidentally)! ^^
Left to Right: Hair Spray colour (brown), Hair spray (to go to school) and Hair Spray colour (silvery)

Back from Dr. James Lee

2006-09-09T14:10:00.000+08:00

OK... Today finally I went to my backbone doctor at Gleneagles Hospital. Hmm... Today I came late anyway... But, who cares? As far I came today, still good what. I did inform the doctor that I'll come late. So... It's not a big probs. Then, when I reached there, the doctor was damn crowded sia... A lot of people there. :( I must wait and queue for quite a long time! Then, finally I can go in. He examined me. No improvement :( Last time, when I went back to Indonesia, I did physiotheraphy (EVERYDAY!) and after that I went to the doctor, there was an improvement from 20 degrees to 40 degrees. Today, when he examined me again, the result was still 40 degrees! Hmm... He asked me whether I go for physiotheraphy or not in Singapore. Then I said no, coz I'm very busy (which is true 100%!). Then he asked me to do physiotheraphy in Singapore then I said no time, so I must do it in Indonesia EVERYDAY for 2 MONTHS!!! WTH??? Hmm.. dun care lah hor... OK... After that, I ate at Cathay Cineleisure! :p Then I bought headset (FYI I cut my headset accidentaly yesterday! WTH??) by Sony! They opened new branch at Paragon, OK, good! Muji also will open at Paragon, 3rd level! Hmm.. Good! After that, go home! :) Reached home, no-one at home (except the maid, of course lah.. if not how i can open the house's door?) Then I decided to open my laptop and online. Probably I won't online for tonight (Except if people request me specially to online, then I'll online) as I'm very sleepy and very tired because recently got a lot of people call me until midnight (at least 12.45)... :) Hmm... Tomorrow must wake up as early as school day sia... WTH??? Anyway, dun care!

-GBU-

Pyuh... BUSY!

2006-09-08T21:51:00.000+08:00

Sorry I never update my blogs. I was very busy these few days. And I'm sick also. Aaa... OK... Hmmm... I don't know what to write... Just for your information, these 3 days, I went to this English Course. The first day, Mr. Teo taught us, but the 2nd and the 3rd day, got this Mr. Dan(iel) who taught us. He is originally form UK! Hmm.. Not that bad lah... :p AND it's quite fun for me. :) Huehehe... And you know what? He kept on taking my book instead of Shikin's or Eve's or others' books! Hmm... Dunno what to comment! Basically the thing was very fun! Hahaha... Got this games and Genevieve must touch a lot of things. We said cockroach and she scared! And she touched the thing like so scared like that... Her expression is very funny! Nice... A lot of games lah... Nice!

After the English course, then we went to McD and TM today. Today, Genevieve and me went to TM and she bought a lot of stuffs for somebody so called "u-noe-who"... Hmm...

I'm so tired now... Everyday slept at 1 midnight, because got this guy called me... OK lah... We talked about a lot of stuffs (from girlfriend, his classmates, his teachers, etc.) and it's fun. And for your information, we talked about 2 hours plus plus..! Siao man... I never know that guy can be onb the phone for 2 hours plus... Hmm... No comment about it lah... I just enjoy it, cos I can know a lot of things and I can see that their love is pure and I do hope that their love will last forever! I hope the best for you guys!

Tomorrow: wake up at 7 o'clock. Switch on the heater, wait for 5 mins. Around 7.05, go to toilet. And then around 7.25 come out from toilet. Then, wanna change my pyjamas to my PE, half uniform to go to school. I guess I acan finish in 5 mins time. So, I finish dressing at 7.30. After that, decide what should I do to my hair. Hmm... I guess I will just do like usual. I think I can finish at 7.40 (the latest!) and then go out and take my breakfast. I can finish in 5 mins time, depend on what I'll eat tomorrow. That's mean I'll finish at 7.45. After that, I must call the taxi (and change my address) and I must wait around 5-8 mins. That's mean I'll go out from my condo door at around 7.55. And if there is no traffic jam, I can reach school by 8.15 (the latest). That's mean, I have 15 mins before my Chem class start. It starts at 8.30 and finished at 12.30. BUT I'll leave the class at around 10.40. Straight away go to Gleneagles Hosp. I got appointment at 11.15. The journey from Bedok to Orchard is around 30 mins (with taxi). So, I can reach Gleneagles at around 11.10, which means I have 5 mins spare to calm down and prepare myself to see the doctor. Hmm... I just afraid what will he say... Dun care lah... Just hope there is nothing serious happened to me! Amen...

-GBU-

Sick = Sakit = Sick = Sakit

2006-09-06T16:24:00.000+08:00

Alamak.... I got this a bit of cough and almost running nose! Because of what? Yesterday I went under the rain! I wore my jacket already (because the rain was not that heavy, that's why I choose jacket) to cover my head, and yet, I still got sick. Aaaaa................ Dun want to sick right now... I dun want... I want to be healthy... :(

Sakit sakit... Batuk pilek... aaaaa... dasar gara2 kemarin aja tuh! gara2 kena ujan! Hmmm.... soalnya ujannya tuh ga bgt deres, jd bs donk pake jaket doang (ujannya tuh cuman rintik2 doank)

Aiyah... Mo sehat pokoknya........ Dun care... I want to be healthy again....

=============GBU=================

TODAY's PHOTOS!!! :p

2006-09-06T14:37:00.000+08:00

Genevieve when she went with me to Pizza Hut this afternoon. So cute right?
Genevieve again. :) She really cute, that's why I put her photo here. She always sit behind me every morning (when got assembly lah) and sit in front of me every A Math and E Math lesson (and when we don't have assembly on the parade square).
Genevieve drank her coke until finish!
Sleep in peace because I know that my GOD always with me =)
I don't want to wake up! But, later Mr. Teo will knock my head if I never come for today's English lesson. :p
I don't want to wake up lah...I still want to enjoy my sweet dream! =) Candid camera by my maid, she got angry to me because I refused to wake up! Huahaha... The background looks like bright, because she switched on the light early on 6 o'clock! :(

-GBU-

Come Back ^_^

2006-09-06T13:55:00.000+08:00

Alright... I haven't blogging for yesterday. Yesterday I was so tired. :p I got this Temasek Poly course, about Crimes with passion. Basically this thing was about law. AND IT WAS VERY INTERESTING!!! I like it man! Yesterday I was really enjoy it! Hmmm... Law = justice = protect people = DEBATE. The best part about law is that you will be very good debating people! I want to be very good to debate people! After that go to Orchard with Genevieve and Zhi Ying and Shikin. We went to Cathay Cineleisure. We watched this movie, "The Devils Wear Prada". First, Gene and Zhi Ying were not so sure, whether the movie will good or not, but finally when we watched until the end, we all agreed that the movie was NICE! After that take bus no 7, straight away to Bedok (thanx to Ce Lenny to show me this useful bus!). When reached Eunos, Shikin decided to take bus no 13 from there. Reached home, I took a shower and took my dinner also. After that I checked my e-mail as usual and you know what? Finally I get the e-mail that I want! Hmm... the e-mail was very long... Walaw... I read for at least 8 times. Hmm... OK... I won't talk about that here.

Today, got English class and Mr. Teo came late for 10 mins. Hmmm... The lesson was damn funny. Got a lot of things happened. We keep on playing with Sue Ting name. What thing what thing? Sue Tiiing. And she kept on saying, "Shut up lah you!" Damn funny sia... She never angry leh... Very patient and kind 0f her sia... Thank you Sue Ting... ^_^

After English class, go to Pizza Hut with Genevieve and Pranesh (aka Ah-Pra). Took our breakfast there, except Ah-Pra. Then from there we go home lah... Hmm.... Then I online and then go and chat with Ms. Ng and Ms. Melissa! Huahahaha... That's all until now (14.30)

Note: Marka, lu udah baekan blom sih? Gw SMS lu ampe HP gw mati bosen d, tp ga pernah dibales... Bikin gw jd bingung... I'm quite worried about you... Soalnya kemarin suara lu sound kyk sakiiiiiiit bgt. Klo dah baekan, SMS gw yah... =) Hope you get well soon! GBU

-GBU-

Swimming Photos

2006-09-04T20:20:00.001+08:00

So cute of them sia... Again, Joyce on the left and Eve on the right. Again, Joyce's face looked different! Hmm... Dunno why...
It's Joyce on the left and Eve on the right. They were swimming. So sexy! So fun! (Joyce face looked different!)

OK... The story is like this: We all met at Bedok Swimming Complex. Then Joyce and Eve changed their clothes to the SEXY swimsuit. Hahaha... Then they all swim like hell. Then, of course, the most important opart is: TAKING PICTs! Hahaha... When we all swim, suddenly, Wei Xun and his company came! OMG! I warned Joyce not to go to Wei Xun direction (otherwise, she could bang them!). Then we all play a lot of things. I must throw Eve's goggle box to the middle of the swimming pool, then Eve and Joyce will try to get it. Who's the fastest, she is the winner (and I used "bowling" style to throw it to the air! Hahaha). For today, Joyce is the winner, quite a small different between Eve and Joyce (Eve's score: 6 and Joyce's score: 7). Then they all took a shower and then we bought a small snack and then went home. Hehehe... So, here I am... Updating again my blogs (upload the photos)! Hahaha... OK... Basically today is fun! :p

-GBU-

P.s. JOYCE: don't put what I told you just now about him as comment on my blogs ar... Later people got see and I die. Probably he also can read as he knows my blogs' address. I don't want later he tease me about it, so don't talk about that issue! OK? I'll update you later how it goes! Hahaha...

EVE: jgn lu tulis soal gw yg senyum2 ndiri pas terima SMS atau pas tlp as a comment. Bs mati blushing gw ntar.. Hahaha... OK? =)

MARKA: don't forget to explain to me that issue as the issue is Very Very Very Important! I'm waiting for it on MSN! :p Thanxxx... GBU abundantly

Yesterday

2006-09-04T13:01:00.000+08:00

Hahaha... OK... As Ms. Joyce Lim requested just now through MSN, asked me to update this blogs. Hmm OK...

Yesterday: Have lunch with this people. Basically I took my lunch with my church friends. Girls: Ms. Novi, Ms. Defi, Ms. Sheila, Ms. Novie. Guys: Mr. Rianto, Gary, Marka, Santo, Junius, etc. Where? I ate my lunch at Le Meridien Hotel Foodcourt.

What happened after that? I went home lah... Asked Marka to go with me... He said can't coz he need to go to Novena to take Santo's shirt (wanna play ball -- guys). He went off with Yonathan. He asked me to take taxi lah... (safe ma..) Then I took taxi lah... Dun want to wait for bus (so long leh). After 15 mins, reached home. I got headache (stupid taxi driver!) and I messaged him that I reached home already. :p

After that leh? Tution. Then dinner. Then MSN. Then saw a lot of people online. Mama, then Eve, then Joyce, then almost midnight, Marka online.

What did you do? Of course MSN. Mama scold me over something and made me very sad (I post the thing already! Title: "Don't irritate me!!"). I cried again... I sms-ed Marka (that moment he hadn't online), told him what happened. Then he messaged me back after 30 mins! Hmm... Then he online then talked from there (through MSN). After chat with mama, I chat with papa. I told him my feeling about it. And he tried to persuade me not to give up and down again. I really appreciate what he has done for me! I love papa so much... =) But, when he got angry.. Alamak... So scary!

After that? Offline lah... Midnight already! 11.58 I officially offline.

After offline? Marka messaged me and I replied his message. So, we message each other lah... He helped me to cheer me up again. Recently, I really become other person. I cry easily, break easily, got irritate easily, change my mood easily, etc. Everytime I need a person to listen to ALL of my probs, my cry and my share, I'll go to Marka. Sometimes I feel not good... Everytime I made him busy because of my probs, my cry and my share. But, he said he is happy with it and no probs at all, so I'll just go ahead. Share my probs and my cry with him. I really appreciate that bro! =)

After SMS with Mark? SLEEP! My eyes so heavy already! (What you expect from people who cry almost everyday?) Then... this morning, a sms woke me up... Hmmm... Then I woke up and reply the message and I can't sleep anymore. Then I receive more SMS then I must reply all sia...

After woke up? Took breakfast, online, check e-mails, chat with Ms. Melissa.

After that? Took a shower, online, chat with Joyce and Ms. Melissa.

After that? My plan is taking lunch and then change my clothes and then I'll ready to go to Bedok Swimming Complex and see Joyce, Shikin and Eve there.

What will I do? I'll share to them a lot of stories. Hehehe... They asked me since yesterday... Hm.. Later I'll be a grandma for awhile! =) Hahaha

-GBU-

P.s. There, I update already lah aunty Joyce! Hahaha...

ME???

2006-09-04T12:55:00.000+08:00

How to make a Elvina

Ingredients:

3 parts pride

1 part ambition

5 parts joy

Method:
Stir together in a glass tumbler with a salted rim. Add a little cocktail umbrella and a dash of lovability

Personality cocktail
From Go-Quiz.com

STOP IRRITATE ME!!!

2006-09-03T22:17:00.000+08:00

Stop irritate me!!! I don't want you to COMPARE ME!!!! My standard with other people standard is different!!! I'm NOT the same with other people! Do you know that??? Please loh... So what if their marks better than mine? So what??? WHY you want to compare me with Canisius College people??? WHY??? Do you know that to get in to CC, Jakarta is difficult??? Their standard is MUCH HIGHER than my school's standard. Do you ever realize it??? Please... Don't irritate me some more! I really not stable now! AND yet, you still irritate me. What do you want??? What do you want??? Do you want to pressure me until I really commited to suicide? My English teacher say I can't just commited to suicide easily because it will disappoint you. BUT, now... What are you doing??? You keep on put pressure on me! You never see how down I am last week! You don't know my situation! You never see what happened here! You say you understood and knew that I tried my best already! BUT, now what happened? You keep one pressurize me!!! You keep on giving me pressure, looked like I NEVER try my best! Just now, i full with NEW SPIRIT and NEW HOPE already! BUT, you made me angry and sad again!!! AGAIN!!! You make me lost my new hope and new spirit that I try to get these 2 things recently, very difficult to get back my HOPE and SPIRIT! WHY??? WHY??? WHY??? You never can appreciate what i have donbe for you??? Why?? It's really disappoint me. Do you know that??? DO YOU EVER REALISED???? I really got stuck now... My tution teacher keep on worrying about me, but do you ever worried about me? Do you ever care about me? Care whether I'll commit to suicide if I down one more time??? Don't let me commited to suicide if you really love me! NOW, I'm very angry and very sad!!! VERY! No doubt about it! Please... Don't irritate me some more! The pain that I feel will not healed so fast. The more you irritate me, the more you make my life shorter. Please.... STOP it RIGHT NOW! Please...

-GBU-

P.s. Marka sorry yah klo recently aku selalu ganggu kamu dgn mslh2 aku. Thanx dah jd my listener. I really appreciate it! -GBU abundantly!-

For Catholics/Christians: this Article is MEANINGFUL and IMPORTANT

2006-09-03T20:25:00.000+08:00

Today is very awesome as I realised that God is working on me wonderfully with His way that very unbelievable. Today, I went to church. There, I followed the praise and worship part and again followed by the sermon and finally the holy sacrament and closed with the bless.

Beginning: Praise and Worship. All of the songs are so MEANINGFUL for me. It really suits my situation and condition now. It helps me to realise a lot of things. First of all, about HIS loves to all human being. Second of all, nothing is impossible for GOD (I know it, but recently I start to don't believe it as I "down"). Third of all, everything can change.

In the middle of the journey: Sermon.

(1) The pastor was talking about wait patiently. I really never think about it before. He said that if we don't get what we want on time, because GOD wants to do it in HIS way as He prepared us for something. Example: when the Israel came out from Egypt. GOD lead their way to turn around for 40 years before they could reach their destination. WHY? God thought Israel people may not prepared for something if they go using the shortest way. SO, God wanted to PREPARE all the Israel to face something by made them went around for 40 years before they can reach the place. In conclusion: be PATIENT (it may be not a good thing to wait, but it has a good result!) as we may being prepared for other thing.

(2) The pastor was talking about see something from other angle. He gave this example (and it's a true story anyway): He is a golfer. His name is Mr. Robert and he is from Argentina. He won a world class tournament, made him very rich with a lot of money. After receiving the cheque, he went to his car. In the middle, he met with this young lady. The yound lady congratulate him and told him that she is a young mom with a young child. Her young child is very ill and nearly to death. Her husband left her when she was pregnant. She asked for Mr. Robert's help. She need a lot of money to pay her child medication in hospital. Mr. Robert was willing to help her and he gave ALL the money that he got from the tournament. One week later, he went to his Golf Club and met with his friends. One of his friends asked him whether he was giving money to the lady. And Mr. Robert said, yes. And then, Mr. Robert's friend told him that this young lady is a big liar. She never pregnant and in fact there is no child in ill condition and nearly to death! What a shock news for everybody. And Mr. Robert's reaction made everybody even more shock! He asked again to make sure that there is no child in ill condition and nearly to death. And all of his friends stated the same thing, that there is NO child in ill condition and nearly to death. What's Mr. Robert's reaction? He LAUGHED! He laughed LOUDLY! Everybody confused! WHY? Mr. Robert's answer: This is the BEST news I ever heard for this year! That there is NO child in ill condition and nearly to death! He was so happy and laughed non stop. A lot of people still confused with this thing. Only 1 explanation for it: he cares child more than his money. It's the same with Jesus's loves for us. He loves his child more than his life. It's the same with GOD's loves for us. He sends His love by sacrified His ONLY son for us, so that we can come nearer and closer to Him. He loves us that much!

Final: Blessing. GOD blesses you with a lot of blesses so that you can be a blesser for other people. The thing that you have now, is NOT yours! SO, don't be so egoistic. Take everything for yourself and never share with other people. For example: if people asked you to kill your child to save other people's child, will you do it? Obviously no! Only mad people will answer yes. BUT, our GOD, sacrifice HIS ONLY son to save us! He send His only son, Jesus, and made Jesus died on the cross. For what? He loves human so much. He doesn't want we go further from Him. He wants to break the bearer in between us and Him. Therefore he broke it by made Jesus died to take away all of our sins. Hence ALL of our sins was taken away by Jesus, there is no more bearer in between us and God. Therefore, we will become nearer to God. We can talk freely with God. We can share our problems with God. We can do everything with God.

In conclusion: GOD LOVES US VERY MUCH! Therefore, when He asked us to wait for awhile, better we do it, otherwise something bad may happen. =)

-GBU-

P.s. Hope with this share, you will realise a lot of things. Change yourself to be a better person! So that His sacrifice will worth it! =)
Question? Just message me or MSN me or call me. For any clarification, can send e-mail to me or post a comment too. ALL COMMENTS ARE WELCOMED (as far you responsible for it!)

Success with GOD

2006-09-03T17:15:00.000+08:00

GOD's super on your natural produces the supernatural

It is God's supernatural ability on your natural ability that produces supernatural results. The blessing of the Lord is endowed power. To put it simply yet accurately to be endowed with power, you will look different. You will walk with different. You will talk different. You will live different.

Dressed for Good Success

To be endowed with power is to be fully dressed. I am now "fully dressed" with God's power. I now have God's supernatural ability on me. Whenever I say that I am blessed, I am simply agreeing with God's Word. I am just saying what He was already said concerning me and my future. I have God's supernatural ability on me to produce good success. And all of us have the same thing, as in all of us have the God's supernatural ability, as far we all believe in Him.

It is one thing to have a basket of apples, and quite another thing to have total access to a whole orchard. If I have one thousand dollars, that is all I have. Only one thousand dollars! I have only a basket of apples. But if God blesses me, I have access to the whole orchard. I have access to His unlimited supply. I have His endowed power that gives me the ability to have all my needs met and to bless others. I now have access to not just a thousand dollars but to an unlimited amount of money.

Never forget who your supplier is. Many do not know their supplier. Some people think that their boss is their supplier. Or the economy. Or the stock market. Or their job. No wonder they fail financially.

We fail when we look to men or ourselves as the source of supply. God is your supplier. You have to keep your eyes focused on God all the time.

If you have a bank account in your name and a huge deposit has been put into your account, but you don't know about it. It is the same as being ignorant. When you are ignorant about the blessing, you will not operate in the blessing. It is as if you don't have the blessing at all. You must know that you have the blessing. You must know that you are blessed of God because of God's covenant with Abraham.

That is your covenant right! God has proclaimed that blessing on you. You need to know that today.

-May this share will help you to build your mind about God's love and God's power. Something that may be impossible for us (very very very very impossible), it IS a POSSIBLE for God, as His power is UNLIMITED.-

-GBU-

What It Means to Be Blessed of God

2006-09-03T16:54:00.000+08:00

"The blessing of the LORD, it maketh rich, and he addeth no sorro with it." Proverbs 10:22

The Bible tells us that the blessing of the Lord makes us rich. Some say there is a "secret meaning" to the word "rich". Others say that "rich" refers to spiritual riches. There is no secret meaning. Rich means rich. Rich means plenty; rich means a lot; rich means abundance.

To be rich and godly is a good thing because it reflects the Lord's blessing. If it were not good for you or me, why could God's blessing make us rich?

What does the Bible mean by the word "blessing"?

According to the Baker's Dictionary of Applied Theology, the word "blessing" means: endowed power that will result in prosperity and good success.

"This book of the law shall not depart out of thy mouth; but thou shalt meditate therein day and night, that thou mayest observe to do according to all that is written therein: for then thou shalt make thy way prosperous, and then thou shalt have good success." Joshua 1:8

God wants you to be prosperous and have good success. The more you meditate on God's Word and apply God's truth, themore you will be prosperous and have good success. The more God's Word is in you, the more it will produce prosperity and good success in your life.

The blessing of the Lord is endowed power. It is the ability of God on your ability to do something beyond your natural ability.

-GBU-

GOD's Power

2006-09-03T16:36:00.000+08:00

"The blessing of the LORD, it maketh rich, and he addeth no sorrow with it." Proverbs 10:22

"And HE said unto them, take heed what ye hear: with that measure ye mete, it shall be measured to you: and unto you that hear shall more be given." Mark 4:24

"And HE said to them Be careful what you are hearing. The measure (of thought and study) you give (to the truth you hear) will be the measure (of virtue and knowledge) that comes back to you, and more (besides) will be given to you who hear." Amplified Bible, verse 24

You have to pay attention to all these truths that you are learning now. Study and give thought to them. You have to meditate on them. Only then will you get the full benefits. The more you meditate on them, the more you study them, the more benefits you will receive. And greater will be the breakthroughs you experience.

It is no good just hearing them. You must work at getting these truths into your spirit. The moment you get a revelation in your spirit, that's the beginning of your breakthrough. Very soon, the manifestation will become a reality when you execute the principles of the Word in your life.

One of your greatest enemies is tradition. Your traditional background and old way of thinking will block your understanding of truth. It will be your old mindset working when you look at the scriptures through the filter of your traditions. When you read your bible through the framework of your 0ld religious mindset, you will not be able to hear and understand the Word correctly. Put aside your traditions. They are not important. In fact, your traditions would make the Word of God no effect in your life as Jesus said.

"Making the Word of God of none effect through your tradition, which ye have delivered: and many such like things do ye." Mark 7:13

One of the most important decisions you will have to make today is to stop allowing your traditions to hold you back from moving forward with God. The most powerful reality concerning your prosperity is to make the quality decision that you will not let any tradition prevent you from seeing the truth in God's Word.

God wants you to be blessed! This truth must be settled in your heart and in your mind today!

-GBU-

Time for Photos!

2006-09-03T15:47:00.000+08:00

Me... Different place, different angle, different feeling and therefore different expression! :)
Me... In different place, with different occassion, with different pose! :p
Ms. Melissa and me... Special friend with the special day for special person that needs us. :p

Steal the Photos from Joyce! :p

2006-09-02T12:43:00.000+08:00

Background: Takashimaya. Actresses (from left to right): Joyce Lim and Elvina G.
Me and Joyce again... Wherever we go, taking photo is compulsory! :)

We are busy people, busy with our phone and our business. Business must keep on going! :p

Today....

2006-09-02T12:25:00.000+08:00

Hmmm... Today, this morning woke up without any incident or accident. Opened my eyes, saw the time, still 7.30. Hmm... Then go and slept again. Hahaha... Then woke up again around 8.30. Opened my eyes again and I wanted to read my FEMALE magazine that I bought yesterday. I read until my tution teacher sms me that she would reach my place in 15 mins time. Then I woke up and took my milo and ate a piece of cake and then sat in fron of my laptop and edit a lot of photos.

Tution time! English... We did a lot of things in fact. Hahaha... After 2 hours, she went home and teach other student I guess, I go online and update this blogs. I still waiting for my important e-mails anyway! Hmm... Why this thing take so long ar? Dunno leh...

Later at 2 o'clock I got this chem/phy tution. Hmm.. Today's schedule is packed. Dunno later got tution for how long. May be 2 hours. After that, I must take a bath and then see later what will happen. :)

That's all for now as I don't have any mood to write a long grandma story! Huahahaha... :p

-GBU-

My Deepest Heart

2006-09-01T20:43:00.000+08:00

I never know before that I also like you and love you. I never realise before that actually you care about me. I never realise before that in fact you always beside me whenever I need you. I also never know that actually there are a lot of reasons for you to call me regularly. Everything become so clear today. Every single thing, every details about you are so clear for me now.

I also just realise how important you are for me. I also just realise how I miss you every day. I also just realise how I feel differently on you. Now I know why. Everything are so clear now. I understand of every part of it.

I also just realise how important I am for you. Without people beside you, you may go to the wrong way, to the wrong path. Although so far, you never done it.

Now I know what must I do for you. Now I know what's my decision for this issue. My important decision is: I'll always beside you whenever you need me as you always beside me whenever I need you. You always be there for me, I share a lot of things with you, my problems, my life and my feeling, and yet, you never complain about it. You always give me a solution that solve my problems. I also want to be there for you. I would like to hear and share your problems, your life and your feeling. I won't complain about it as you also never complain to me about it. I may not give you solution as good as you give me, but I will try my best for it. I will do whatever I can do for you. One thing that I won't leave you alone as you also never leave me alone.

Now, give me a chance. A chance to show you how care I can do for you, how much love I can give for you. To show you how deep my feeling on you now. How serious my decision about it.

You may read it tomorrow or next week or next month or next year, but I commit that I won't change my decision about it. I won't change my feeling on you. I just want you to know that you have somebody to share your problem with, that you have a shoulder occupied for you to cry on, that you have a pair of ears which ready to listen to all your complains, that you have somebody to cry and laugh together.

Just one thing, the most important thing after all, that I LOVE YOU and I would like to play a very important role in your life and occupy a very important place in your heart as you also play an important role in my life and occupy an important place on my heart.

I LOVE YOU SO MUCH

-GBU-

When Today is Going Very Well

2006-09-01T20:01:00.000+08:00

Today, woke up quite late, around 9.30 this morning. Then go and message Marka and Shikin. Then after 5 mins, Shikin called me to talk to her, coz she was very boring that time. :p Talked for 32 mins. Hmm... Not really long actually (FYI usually we on the phone for 1 hour plus). She asked me to go cycling with her at ECP. Hmm... dun wan... To lazy! Hahaha... Then I go online to check my inbox (I'm waiting for a lot of important e-mails anyway) Then Joyce message me, asked me to go cycling at ECP (she is 2nd person who asked me to go cycling today). She message me, "wanna go cycling at ECP?" then I replied, "wanna go shopping today?". Then she said... "can lar..." GOOD! I won't bored anymore. Then I asked Eve to go along then she said dun wan coz need to send Richi to airport.

Our journey started! I met with Joyce at Bedok Interchange and then took a cab to Singapore Polytechnic to submit this essay about,"that's hot". From there we took our lunch at Swensens at Orchard area, we talked about a lot of stuufs anyway. And as usual we took photo and NEOprint! Hahaha... So fun sia... Then took bus number 7 to go to Bedok. AND you know what, inside the bus, got this inconsiderate people, who switched on music from their handphone LOUDLY and that's not enough as they also go and SING LOUDLY also, not only SING they also DANCE! What the hell.... Joyce close her ears and I switched on my MP3 player so that I no need to hear their f***ing voice! Walaw... So inconsiderate sia...

Reach home, my tution teacher message me that the tution postponed to tomorrow around 2 o'clock afternoon coz I think she got something going on today that quite a sudden. Then I called Shikin about something important then talked for a short time (only 15 mins plus). Then I update this blogs, later I may update some more. =)

-GBU-

-I'll try to care about you. I may even more than care, I may LOVE you. I love you not because I'm under pressure or what. I love you because I like you. There is no pressure for me to love you as a whole. I would like to sit beside you, cry and laugh together with you whenever you need me. I owe you a lot of things, now it's the time for me to pay you back. I owe you really a lot, until even money can't pay it back. I think only with my love I can pay you back. When you care about me, I never think about it. When you show your love to me, I never realise it, until today. When I really realised 1 thing, that actually you care and love me. Now, it's the time for me to show my care and love to you. Let me do it. Let me love you!--

HAPPY TEACHERS' DAY

2006-09-01T11:02:00.000+08:00

To all teachers in this world:

HAPPY TEACHERS' DAY

Thank you to teach us a lot of things.
Thank you to be patient when teach us.
Thank you to do a lot of precious things for us.
Thank you for your commitment and your dedication to school and to the education world.
We really appreciate what you have done for us.
Hope you enjoy teaching students and never give up because of them. =)

HAPPY TEACHERS' DAY

-GBU-

Math Teachers' Day Celebration

2006-08-31T18:44:00.000+08:00

OK guys... This is the only photo I took for today's Special Math Teachers' Day Celebration done by Math Counsellor PYSS 2006. From the front row, we can see Mrs. Tan Eng Siew (301 FT), Mdm. Anisa Ali, Ms. Pow Wee Wee (302 FT), Ms. Navamani and don't know who the last teacher. The behind row, we can see Mr. Don't know who, Mr. Whey Kin Peng, Mr. Lee Lye Peng (303 FT), Mr. Eugene Yong, Mr. Ryan Neo (421 FT) and don't know who the next people (can't see clearly, sorry ar cher..). ALL of them ARE SMILING, show how happy they are. BUT, there is 1 person who was CLEARLY not smiling at all and just "smirking". I hope you know who you are so I no need to write here, it'll just embarrass yourself!

Place: In front of Library (change from the main place, school canteen)
Time: Around 11.30 plus
Invitator: All Math Counsellor (but only a few attend the moment: Li Mei, Shikin, Vidya, Nikhili, Chiah Nah and me)
Guess: All the math teachers, Mrs. Woo and Mrs. Tan never come (don't know why)
Situation: in a hurry (teachers are having "meeting" after that)

HAPPY TEACHERS' DAY! (Especially Math Teahcers in this photo). Hope you enjoy to teach us! Thank you for your dedication, teachers! Good job and GOOD LUCK =)

-We always hope the best for you teachers!-

-GBU-

Acknoledgement and Sorry and Prayer

2006-08-31T16:04:00.000+08:00

Special acknowledgment for Marka. Thank you to always listen to all my problems (either the easy one or the difficult one). Thank you to always give me a good solution. Thank you to always ready for me whenever I need you to be my listener. Thank you to always comfort me whenever I need it. Thank you to always be patient to me, although sometimes I may make you angry too. Thank you to always remind me to get back to the correct path. Thank you for everything. I know I have you as my listener, my friend and my everything. For having Marka I also must thank GOD for He is good, lend Marka to me. GOD, without You, I really nothing. GOD, without You I know that I won't realise a lot of things. GOD, without You, I will never feel the comfort that You send through Your child, Marka. GOD, without You, I will never the relieve. I know as a human, I always feel not enought, I will always feel disappoint over something. I know GOD. Because of that, I want to say sorry to You, my Jesus. Hope You can forgive me God, for all sins that I make, either accidentally or not. Thank you my Lord. I'm sorry GOD for my egoist. I'm sorry GOD that I can't appreciate what people have done. I'm sorry GOD that I always disappoint You, by give up easily. I'm sorry GOD that I often make You sad over my behaviour in this world. I'm sorry GOD if I never say thank you to You. I'm sorry. Today as Marka mentioned to me, that I must appreciate everything although the things are very disappointing, I realised all my faults. I realised what should I do. I shall learn how to say thank you over everything, no matter I like it or not. I shall learn a lot of things GOD, a lot of things that very important for me to learn. Other people may not be my teachers, but they teach me a lot of things. SO, I should say Happy Teachers' Day also for people who teach other people although their profession may not be a teacher. They may have other profession as their job but they can lead and teach people about something, they can be called as a teacher. I believe that. GOD bless for everybody who be blessed for other people, by teaching other people a lot of important things in their life. Thank you GOD for YOU make me realised it.

-GBU-

DISAPPOINTED

2006-08-31T12:48:00.000+08:00

TODAY IS SO SICKENING!!! A lot of things made me feel disappointed! A lot of people are so sickening, make me disapointed!!! Everything about the teachers' day celebration today made me sick and disappointed!!! From early in the morning till the end. WHY YOU CAN'T APPRECIATE WHAT PEOPLE DO FOR YOU???? WHY??? Other teachers can appreciate it! Why not with you?? You don't want the party that we make for you, because I'M inside there, say lar... I WON'T COME if I know that you don't like me!!! I WON'T COME so that you can enjoy the party!!! So sickening! If you don't want to receive my greeting to you, SAY lar.... Don't show it with your face!! It's make me sick! Other teachers can appreciate it, why not with you??? There were smile in every single teachers' face when I said, "Happy Teachers' Day, teacher!", BUT I can't find any smile on your face since I greet you inside homeroom!!! Nothing! OK, fine! If you DON'T like me, tell lar... Don't think by telling me that I'm not a well behaved student will make me understand that you don't like me! It's show me that you REALLY DON'T LIKE me. I never regret to come and schooling at PYSS, BUT now, you make me the other way. I still like and LOVE PYSS, the principal, vice-principal, friends and other people, except YOU!!! You should know who you are! You are the 2nd person who make me sick in school! YOU ruin my day! I change my mood again because of your bloody face!!! You don't want to accept my greeting then say lar... Let everybody know about it! Let everybody know (especially the Math teachers, ALL of them!) that you don't like me!!! You really disappoint me!!!!!! Althought I want to ask you to get lost, next year I'll be still seeing you! I'll make sure next year I'll see you again! At the end of the day... I really don't know what to say about you!!!!!!! Other teachers even can say thank you happily, laughing away with us. BUT, you NEVER say thank you! You even SCOLD me for it! You said, "For what wasting time do this thing?" WHY YOU NEVER APPRECIATE IT??? You make me sad, you make me angry. Other teachers even can say that the cake was nice! What's your comment? NOTHING! You only can scold me!!! SCOLD like hell!!! I make effort to do something, you scold me. I never make effort to do something, you also scold me! WHAT YOU WANT??? Now I know that my friends are CORRECT about you after all. They said you sucks and it's a FACT! Now I trust them! Before, I never trust it! I always thing that you are a good teacher! NOW after all, I believe that you really sucks! See later, what will happen. If you keep on doing this, I'll hate you FOREVER! If you stop all of this non sense, I still want to like you. Up to you.. the choice is yours! Not mine! -GBU-

P.s. CONGRATULATION for Mr. Lim Liang Hee, Ms. Goh Layna, Mr. Chua Tock Hai and Mrs. Deborah Ong for your achievement and for your dedication to teach us (PYSS students). Keep it up teachers! Congratulations!!

Day BEFORE Teachers' Day Celebration

2006-08-30T20:47:00.000+08:00

Early in the morning: Basically nothing happened, got assembly as usual. Ashley never come, dunno why. LLP stood in front of me, never say anything.

After assembly: Got Geography class, then after 30 minutes, got this fake alarm, Mrs. Yam asked us to pack up everything and brought our bag with us and went down to the field. Everybody, every single classes, every single teachers, even every single canteen vendors! WOW.... Dunno got what... Then Mr. Martin Chan asked the first person at every class to bring the class board. SO, I must hold it! OK.. then he asked us to SIT at the field! WOW... it's damn dirty leh... But, no choice. Must sit, otherwise, LLP will kill me, he almost kill me already when Genevieve and me laughed when Mr. Teo said, "Although when you stuck inside the toilet, please go to field alse when you heard the alarm." Everybody also laughed, then LLP turned his face to me and said, "It's not funny at all." He said to me like that with his serious face, like what like that sia...

Recess: Basically nothing happened also. So boring sia sometimes..

After recess: A Math and E Math. LLP's homeroom. Die. Die. Die. Boring. After 30 minutes, LLP went for this NCC thing. Heaven comes! Hahaha... Did all the assignment then talked with Natalie about this braces and teeth things (recently got a lot of people talk to me about this teeth-braces thing). And I got message from Mr. Ryan Neo that MLC cancelled today because no teacher-in-charge around when we need their key to open the air con and light for the MLC (I just guess the reason ar.. Don't take it seriously! Don't say I say anyhow one... It's only MY own OPINION not the teacher told me one!)

Lunch: went to bubble tea shop. Bought a longan tea yoghurt (not really nice taste). Went to CME class at 4th floor and the teacher said that we wouldn't have any class as she would not around in school. So, I went to library then announce to 303 people at the library that CME will be "cancelled" as the teacher will not around.

After lunch: stayed at the library. Be a narrator for a drama and the drama is for competition! Wah... OK.. then I just tried my best to do it lar... Then got this drama, Eve and Li Bing were the main actresses. So good sia their act... Hahahaha..... Then they must redid everything because we asked Mr. Teo to ask Mdm. Noorzura about it (sorry for the wrong spelling).

After drama: Physics class. SO GOOD! NOT BORING AT ALL! Hahahaha... I think I start to love it man... Hahaha... I'm quite siao today.. So, don't care about my opinion today. Then stay back for quite long time, to talk to Mr. Chua about this Physics stuffs with Shi Kelin, Wong Sue Ting, Dong Ye, Wei Ming and me. We debate about graphs and other stuffs. Quite fun anyway. Then after that, I went home.

Reached home: open my inboxes and replied them. One of them from LLP and I die again sia... OK, don't care about me... After that I did the physics project (I don't let people disturb me this time around) and I expand the 6 pages of projects became 9 pages of projects, including pictures and copyright. Haaa... So tiring! Tomorrow must pass up. A lot of things happened on my Physics Project, but yet we still can go through it. A good achievement I think...

After dinner: chat with my mother and uncle. Then talk to Shikin for a while, asked her permission over a lot of things. First of all of course the Math Counsellor thing and second of all is our private stuffs.

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A Poem For You (specially made for people who faced problems, from my own opinion. COPYRIGHT reserved!)

A lot of things may happen in this world.
A lot of things may happen without we want it.
A lot of things may disappoint us.
BUT we still must go through it.

When we know the result.
When we know what happened in final.
When we know whether the thing is going on like what we want or not.
We will know what must we do and decide.

We may disappoint by the result
We may disappoint by the people
We may disappoint by a lot of things
But yet, there will always a JOY behind it

A JOY after all
A JOY after every single disappointing thing
A JOY after all the sadness feeling
A JOY that may make us satisfied with it

Let the time show us our way
Let the time ANSWER every single question in our mind
Let the time prove everything
Let the time help us in our life!

-GBU-

Today's Mood

2006-08-29T19:15:00.000+08:00

Today, since early in the morning, I changed my mood easily (my mood is volatile!). From happy to angry to sad to happy again to sad then to happy again finally! Aiyah... Today is quite complicated lar anyway...

Morning: Ask Li Mei and Shikin to give the invitation card for the Principal and Vice Principal (and I forgot to write down what's the occasion!). Got assembly, I passed the invitation card for Mr. Lee and Ms. Pow. Both of them looked like surprised like that... May be they never expect they invited to attend our celebration.

Recess: Basically nothing happened. I just tried to distribute the rest of the invitation cards (and I only can give to Ms. Goh Layna). Then took my recess (ate mee rebus...)

After recess: Nothing happened also... Just got Geography and I saw my marks and it made me sad and I need to sms somebody to make me calm down (you know who you are lar...).

Lunch break: I went to MLC to put my bag with Eve then went down. Eve went to bubble tea shop and I went to Staff Room, tried to give the rest of the invitation cards, before I reached Staff Room (in front of Prefects' Room), I met with Mr. Ryan Neo and Genevieve and Lay Hoon and Zhi Ying. Genevieve accompanied me to go to Staff Room to give the Invitation Cards and I talked to her about a lot of stuffs... Nobody there anyway, then I went back to MLC and met with Mr. Ryan Neo again and I asked him whether my name lists are correct or not and he gave me 1 more name to put and 2 more names to eliminate from the name lists. Then I passed all the invitation cards to him and asked him to give to all the names there and he agreed (good... Make my life easier!). Then I met with Genevieve and Lay Hoon and 3 of us went to bubble tea shop and boght 5 bubble tea (1 for Lay Hoon, 1 for Genevieve, 1 for Zhi Ying, 1 for Wu Yu and 1 for me) and 4 fries (1 for Lay Hoon, 1 for Genevieve, 1 for me and 1 for Wu Yu). Then reached school, I went to MLC, took my Chem paper and go to Chemistry class with Genevieve and Lay Hoon (we late by 3 minutes) then we ate inside the class while we were listening to Ms. Goh's explanation. And you know what, Shikin and Eve came late for 45 minutes and attended the class for 15 minutes only. Good gals!

Before MLC's duty time: I must call Mr. Ryan Neo for 3-4 times in 5 minutes. Because no one can open the MLC's air con and light. He asked us to approach Mr. Eric, he was not in school. He asked us to approach Mr. Ho, he was not there also. He asked us to approach Mr. Lee Lye Peng, he went home already. He asked us to approach Ms. Huang, she was not in her homeroom and we don't know her Staff Room number. Then Shikin, Eve and me decided to climb over the partition at the MLC (Shikin did it) although Mr. Ryan Neo said that MLC can close for today. Bacuse we need to do a lot of homeworks, that's why we insist to open it.

MLC's duty time: did ALL the homeworks. Talked and chat for a lot of stuffs. AND I don't know why, got this 312 students (girls) came to Mr. Abdul Malek or Mr. Ryan Neo homeroom WITHOUT permission and just left away like that... Then Shikin and me go and knocked at their door, asked for their class, then I wrote at the whiteboard at the Mr. Abdul Malek or Mr. Ryan Neo homeroom about it and told them about what happened.

After MLC's duty time: I went to bubble tea shop and bought an upsize Mango Ice Blended with pudding instead of pearls. Then we took 222 bus, alighted at the Bedok Interchange. I took money and then top up my phone and went home.

Reached home: I opened my inboxes and replied all the messages and I sent a lot of e-mails again like yesterday! Wah... so tiring, but it fun! I like it man... Hahaha... SO, now I am updating my blogs, let you people see my daily work! Hahaha...

After online: Take a bath, take dinner, prepare the books for tomorrow and SLEEP!!! I need to sleep coz my sleep time was irregular recently! When I reached school, I'll feel so sleepy after that. Hahaha...

Bye...

-GBU-

BUSY ALL DAYS!

2006-08-28T20:08:00.000+08:00

Hmm.. Today, cabut from English class because of the Math Counsellor meeting (thanx for it man! I can die if you extend the English Lesson hour! I will explain to you later..). Around 1.45, we had this Math Counsellor meeting on Math Learning Centre, Block G, Level 4. Wei Xun can't come because don't know what sia... He got tution or what... SO, basically on the meeting itself got Mr. Lee Lye Peng, Li Mei (Chairman of the Math Counsellor), Shikin (Vice-Chairman of the Math Counsellor), Nikhili, Vidya, Chiah Nah, Cheng Hao and me. We talked about 2 main things (which including LLP inside the meeting) and 1 very-important-and-urgent thing (which NOT including LLP inside the meeting). The meeting was quite fun and full of laughter anyway! Hehehe... Very good! Than got a lot of noisy time and finally got peaceful time (when Nikhili went for something in somewhere with somebody, Li Mei almost cry and laugh in the same time sia...). After that, meeting was closed with a lot of important results.

After school and the meeting, Chiah Nah and me need to go to Bedok Interchange to do the marketing, we need to take down the price of a lot of things (as we need the data to do something). After that, we bought a quite-heavy cake (around 2 kg) for something on someday. Haa... Finally my job finished! Then took my lunch with Chiah Nah on KFC (the fastest ma...)

Reached home... I need to send a lot of e-mail. 1st e-mail to all Math Counsellors + PYSS Math teachers for the meeting results. 2nd e-mail to Math Counsellor only, WITHOUT PYSS Math teachers for the something that is going to held on school, someday later. 3rd e-mail to Li Mei about the things' price and about the cake thing! After finishing with all of those e-mail things, I must do the invitation card thing. I only have 17 cards and I don't know how many more I need for it! Hmm... Later I check with someone lar... Hehehe.... Sorry ar, if got a lot of mysterious thing here... Hehehe... :p

ENGLISH LESSON

English Lesson was totally out of nice! You know what? That new teacher right, go and scold us like hell. Wei Yuan did nothing also kena scold. She think who is she sia... She forced us to do a lot of homeworks without giving us an APPROPRIATE time to do it! WTF?? When half of the class couldn't finish the thing, she forced us to submit it. SO, we submit it lar... What's the next problem? She didn't satisfy with it! What the hell... Then se forced us to make REFLECTION (like physics sia...)!!! WHY we did not do it properly and HOW we can do better than that. People say they are busy. It's A MATTER OF FACT! And yet, she said, "Don't lie lar..." Please lor... WE ALL BUSY AND IT'S NOT A BULLSHIT! I don't know how to express this teacher sia... Then she go and wrote 2 statements on my paper. 1st statement: Don't use dictionary as you won't use dictionary on your examination paper. 2nd statement: You don't bother to do all the exercises. Disappointing! Which one will you trust? 1st one or the 2nd one?? IF I really don't bother enough to do it, I WON'T USE DICTIONARY TO DO IT!!! For what I make my life so difficult? Go and take look on the dictionary so many times, kinda wasting time for me IF I REALLY DON'T BOTHER TO DO THE ASSIGNMENT!!! Please lor... Want to say something, think with the BRAIN first! Don't think with your ***! Bloody teacher, bloody hell and bloody shit!!! Only can scold and scold and scream! IF you don't want to teach us then don't teach us lar... Give back this class to Mr. Ivan Teo (I like him more than I like her!), he is the one who suppose to teach my class, not you, bloody teacher! My class don't have any problems with Mr. Ivan Teo, then why you should have problem with us? I really DISAPPOINTED by you too! Don't think you are the only one who can dissapointed over something! Don't think you are the only one who can angry to us! Don't think you are the only one who can scold people! May be you are the one who can't teach! Evidence: Mr. Ivan Teo NEVER do something like what you did to my class! Cross reference: ask anybody in my class lor... Does Mr. Ivan Teo ever scream and scold us when he teach us? Aiyah... teacher can't teach also must teach... How pity the next class who taught by her! New teacher=new experience=new feeling=IMPATIENT when faced the class=SCREAM ALONG THE WAY WHEN SHE TEACHES US! A good equation that should not done by other teacher! Aiyah... Bye... Need to finish up a lot of things tonight! Later 9 o'clock got conference with Li Mei and Shikin. And now I still haven't done anything else. Bye guys! Don't forget the equation! That's the most important "latest equation in this world".

-GBU-

P.s. Mark, lu mau pergi ke mana? Hari Jum'at gw free, soalnya gw khan ada Teachers' Day libur... Hahaha... Mo ke Sentosa ga?

GOD's LOVE is HOT

2006-08-27T21:16:00.000+08:00

This story is about a promise, made some time long ago.
A God made to His people, to help them love and grow.

A dear and Holy people, He cherished as His own.

Citizens of His kingdom, He ruled them from His throne.

A people born in heaven, they had no sin or strife.

A people taught to give, and live eternal life.

A people pure and clean, with heaven as their home.

The knowledge of good and evil, a mystery never known.

A people who live in peace, their hearts devoid of hate.

A people who love their God, and walk with Him in faith.

A people true and honest, with glory all about.

They swiftly obey His word, without question or a doubt.

A people born from love, a flawless perfect birth.

Intent on doing good, untouched by sin and earth.

A people living happy, no knowledge of a care.

A wealthy prosperous people, with splendor everywhere.

A people so dearly precious, their value has no end.

A treasure that's so priceless, He'll protect and even defend.

He made a secret promise, future vision to His own.

A deep sincerely promise, that's anchored by His throne.

They'll get new Holy kings, like Him but be His sons.

To grow in peace and joy, in the new world yet to come.

A secret private promise, He made to each of them.

A promise that His sons, will love and rule with Him.

He promised they'll rule with kindness, as tender-hearted kings.

And treat them very special, their hearts will surely sing.

His strangely secret promise, was made to work two ways.

Bless both His kings and people, they'll shower Him with praise.

First He'd promise His people, then promise to His sons.

They'll be His Holy children, they'll be His only ones.

As wise and wealthy Father, He promised each a gift.

Their lives will soon improve, their lives will get a lift.

They'll both become His family, His one and only lover.

He'll work His two-way promise, and gift each to the other.

Then that day in wisdom, their God devised a plan.

To create His Holy kings, to help rule throughout His land.

He'll make them Holy wise, He'll make them like himself.

Divide with them His kingdom, and share with them His wealth.

He'll train them down on earth, He'll teach them what to do.

They'll help Him rule His people, and make His promise true.

He'll show them how to rule, to treat His people kind.

He'll Bless their soul and spirit, renew them in their mind.

He'll give them secret power, He'll give them secret might.

They'll happily rule His people, be a pleasure in His sight.

That ends our promise story, a mystery little known.

He'll look upon His children, admire how much they've grown.

Their God did keep His promise, He made some time ago.

A promise to His children, to help them love and grow.

© Copyright reserved by Elvina Gunawan, Ping Yi Secondary School, (3) - 303

Updated!

2006-08-26T19:21:00.000+08:00

OK, now is my update about today and yesterday.

Yesterday: 25th August 2006. Basically nothing happened. LLP just announced the whole class CA result (anyway it'll state on the report book and will distribute to us on Wednesday). I joust know that this time around I don't have ANY F9 on my report! Hahaha... My grade is ranging from A1 to E8. A1 for E Math, 92 and E8 for English, 41 and Combined Humanities, 44. Just one thing that I IMPROVE a lot on my PHYSICS! Yeah..! Hahaha... Very good! Hope by the end of this year, I can achieve A1! Hahaha... See later lar... I don't want to set a target for myself, one time I can't achieve it, I'll really commited to suicide, seriously!

Today: 26th August 2006. Basically this morning I was having this chem class in canteen. First hour, I was so sleepy and I can't stand of it and I almost fell a sleep when suddenly Mrs. Woo came and pop out and the whole class must stand and greet her (hurt my leg, coz I scratched my leg accidentally when I stood up). After that, Shikin and me had a long conversation about a lot of stuffs (generally all of those rubbish lar...). It was so boring coz no sec 4s classes there! Aiyah... So wasted sia... After that Shikin and me went to Shikin's house to do English Project. Reached there, Shikin's mother provided us food! Aaa... Good! I haven't take my breakfast, so I took lunch there lar... Then Joyce, Nats and Ah-Pra (aka Pranesh) came also. And we all took our lunch! SO NICE and DELICIOUS! Hahaha... After that we had this Powerpoint Presentation for the English project. It IS so FANTASTIC and FABULOUS (Shikin is an EXPERT on it anyway). After that, Joyce and Shikin went for cycling, Nats, Ah-Pra and me went home. THANX for Ah-Pra and Nats who waited the taxi with me, they left me just after I got a taxi. Thanx guys! Then I reached home and took a bath and online and chat with my tution teacher (she supports me and help to comfort me anyway, thanx cher! I can't put your name here, later :p) and update my blogs and she gave me a lot of advices. That's all until now (7.41 P.M.), if I got something new, I'll keep on updating you!

Anyway, my doctor's appointment postponed to:
Date: 9th September 2006, 11.15 A.M.
Venue: James Lee Orthopaedic Surgery
Gleneagles Medical Centre 6 Napier Road Suite #09-15

Hope there will be nothing happen to me... Hope my backbone problem can be solved! It always pain every Monday, 9.30 until 11.00, during my A Math lecture in AVA! Hmm.. Dunno why, I guess it's because I sit to long (3 hours!) without really moving or standing enough time. This thing really kill me slowly!

-GBU-

I'm SORRY

2006-08-24T19:52:00.000+08:00

I'm sorry if I always make you disappointed. I'm sorry if I always make you angry. I'm sorry if I always make you uneasy. I'm sorry if I have done something that make me an unforgivable and unforgettable person. I'm sorry if Imake you irritated. I'm sorry if sometimes I'm very egoist. I'm sorry if sometimes I don't care about you. I'm sorry if sometimes I can't be a serious person. I'm sorry if I'm a forgetful person. I'm sorry if I always make you into trouble. I'm sorry for everything that I may have done to you. I'M SO SORRY.

I'm sorry if I really can't be like what you want. I'm sorry if later my final year result really disappointed. It's not only you the one who feel disappointed, me too. I feel such of an uneasy feeling. People say I may need to adapt with the competition down here, people say I can do it. BUT, although I tried my best, I still can't make it! It's term 3 already! 75% through the year! I only have less than 2 months to pack up everything. I feel really bad. I can't make it. I know that my mind is the one can kill me slowly, BUT it's a matter of fact that my result become worse! It's a fact that I must face and I can't just run away from it! I really don't know what to do. I tried to study harder but yet, I still failed, even worse! For example: Chemistry! Even Ms. Goh said that my grade is DROP from around A1 become E8! This news hard enough for me to accept! I don't know what's wrong with me. I open my laptop not as often as usual, which means I put more time for my study which means SUPPOSEDLY my result will be better. BUT, WHY??? Why I can't be just like other people who become better day after day? WHY??? I tried my best, but yet I still keep on failing, from one subject to another subject!

I just afraid that later I must drop to sec 4N. It doesn't mean that I look down to the sec 4N, but it's just make me feel guilty to my family. They worked so hard for me. They worked day and night to pay my education down here. But yet my result make a lot of people disappointed. I know I shouldn't give up! I knew, but I can't stop thinking to give up! I just CAN'T stop it. I feel bad. I can't face a lot of people if I really failed!!! I just can't do it! I can't stop blame myself if I failed this year!

Teacher said that if I failed my English, I need 5 other subjects to pass to the sec 4E. At this term 3, I pass my Physics, E Math, A Math and Mother Tongue. I failed my English, Chemistry and I guess my combined humanities! With this result, how I can pass to the sec 4E? HOW? Tell me how? If I pass English, I only need 3 other subjects. This way is IMPOSSIBLE already! I'll never can pass my English!

People say read more and you can improve you English. BUT, the fact is that although I read more books, more newspaper and more other sources, I still failed my English BADLY!

WHAT must I do? Do I really need to give up? I tried my best already... and yet everything still disappoint me. I'm not sure with this short time (less than 2 months) I can pass other subjects. Do I need to take Higher Mother Tongue for my 'O' Level to save my life? I don't know how is my future later. I just can't imagine if all of these things happened to me. I can't face my FAMILY! I can't face other person!

In other way, I also can't face GOD as I lost faith on HIM. Everytime I tried to come back to HIM, I feel I'll failed. I just can't do it.

I'm worried! I'm scared! I lost my confidence! I lost everything! I don't know how to get all of these thing back to me... I don't know how to be a confident person again. I don't know how to build my faith on HIM again. I don't know how to lost my scared and worried feeling.

Am I depressed? Am I frustated? Am I desperate? Will I end up like this? Will my future end up like this? Will I break my brother's future also? Can I save him? Can I help him? CAN I? Do I really need to meet Mrs. Rajoo? Do I really need to talk to the school/student counsellor? Am I really in danger stage? AM I? I CONFUSED!!!

People may advise me a lot of things, BUT I just can't do their advice. I just can't accept it. I just can't do it. I don't know what's make me change so much... This blogs is the only place I can write down my feeling, my day, without need to repeat so many times. This blogs is the only place I can express myself.

I explain you my problems, but I still can't feel relief... I lost a lot of self-confidence. Some of my school teachers made me even worse. Called me a Not-Well behaved student! Do you know hoe it feel? I just did a little thing and you called me like that. I can't imagine what you called other students who bully their teacher! WHY? Just because of small thing, you called me like that? So unfair... I admit that I did a mistake, but it FINISHED already! STOP it! Please.... I have a limited power. I have a limited patient also. I just don't want something end up worse than now.

I guess I need to stop right now. BUT then I don't know what to do. I REALLY DON'T KNOW. I need a good leader. I need somebody. I need a warm person who can hug me whenever I need it. I need a warm person who can tell me what must I do when I lost like this. RESCUE me ASAP please.... I don't want to suffer from it.....

-GBU-

Back!

2006-08-24T17:44:00.000+08:00

Yeah... Finally I get back my laptop. FYI, I put my laptop on school (ask Mr. Neo to keep it for me) because I need my laptop to do a presentation and a competition (anyway we lost, the group is: Shikin, ILI and me). Here is the story:

Tuesday, 22 August 2006. I brought my laptop 2 days ago when I did my MLC duty to do the Malay Competition Project powerpoint presentation. Shikin and me did it on MLC, we got air con and INTERNET connection! So good man! Hahaha... Then we almost done it when Mr. Neo asked for his key and put Shikin and me on a rush. We closed everything, air con, laptop and the connection, locked the key and went to the 1st floor asap. When we reached there we saw Mr. Neo and gave him the key. After that Shikin and me (I brought back my laptop) went home. Hhh... So tired.

Wednesday, 23 August 2006. I brought my laptop again, BECAUSE I can't move the file to USB (so sad...). This time around I gave to Ms. Rubbiah (my Malay teacher) and she asked me to put the laptop on her homeroom and locked it. Then Nathiya and me go there and locked my laptop safely on Ms. Rubbiah's homeroom. When we got the Mother Tongue class, Shikin, ILI and me continue a bit our project and did a presentation in front of the whole class (Shikin spoke to fast anyway). After that I brought my laptop to the English class and when recess, Mr. Neo helped us to put the music on our powerpoint presentation (he promised us the previous day, because he put us in a hurry). After that I gave my laptop to him, asked him to keep it for me inside the staff room (all of my friends said it would be safe inside the staff room, no one will dare enough to take it! And IF the teacher lost it, they will buy the new one for me... Hahahaha... --Nat's joke!). Finished the school, Shikin and me went to the library did a research there and a lot of nice and good and happy things happened! Huahaha... So happy! But, there was also a sad thing, I LOST my Ez-Link card inside the library! And can't find it! Aaa... I plan to replace it on Pasi Ris anyway, so... don't care! After that we talked about the GHOST story in PYSS! So scary sia... After that, go home!

Thursday, 24 August 2006. I'm very nervous, because the competition is TODAY!! Aaa... Last night I can't sleep although I drank my medicine 2 pills! Anyway, reached school early in the morning, finiashed up my E Math assignment, before LLP can scold me! Finished my assignment, Nats came and sat with me, then Eve came and asked us to sit at the Parade Square. We sat there and talked, Shikin and Joyce came in "almost the same time." After that got this assembly and then we must wait for a while for Mr. Luke (our PE teacher). We went to the field and asked to run 4 times (1.2 km)... BUT I no need to do, I got MC for 6 months! Hahaha... After that played badminton with Joyce. From there we went to LLP homeroom for A Math. From there we went to Chemistry class. Hmmm... I feel like want to give up the whole thing sia... I have no hope about it... I really don't know what to do to push it... I tried my best and yet my result disappoint me. I think no point for me to "mempertahankan" this thing for longer time. Since chem class, I feel I changed, I felt so sad. AND Shikin and Eve realised too. They accompanied me to walk and talk and sit in front of the staff room (so GOOD sia them... FRIEND ma...). They kept on supporting me (THANX gals! Love you all!) Then saw LLP and he asked where is my bus-pass and I said that I lost it and it seemed that he didn't believe it, so what? After recess go for English class and I really can't stand of it man... It just make me worse! After that we went to LLP homeroom and did the time table and other assignment by Mr. Remington Chen. When we finished he called me to stay back and he lectured me and it just made me became WORSE! I feel more sad and make my feeling to give up STRONGER than before. He didn't help after all! He said that I'm a NOT WELL behave student! You know why? Just because of the Mdm. Rubbiah (not my malay teacher ar..) incident that time (it also make me can't concentrate for my chem test! WTF!) Forget him... Shikin, Eve and me approached Mr. Neo to take back my laptop because we need it in 30 minutes time. And Shikin sms-ed Mr. Neo to come out from the staff room and talked to me (as he promised to me) as she thought I may need it (in fact I really need it!). AND he really came out and talked to me about the passing criteria. AND he asked me to talk to Mrs. Rajoo (the school's counsellor)! I feel don't want to go. I'm not depressed or what. I just feel want to GIVE UP! He said no need to be depressed or frustated to talk to Mrs. Rajoo. Hmm... I'll think about his suggestion later. After that Shikin, Ili and me went to the room for the competition. AND you know what? My group presented the FIRST one! Aaa... And my laptop got some problem as the thing can't appeared on the LCD screen! Then they restart my laptop and can. Over all... we are not well prepared (my opinion), only the slides of the powerpoint presentation are well prepared. Then the winner is 301. CONGRATULATION guys! =) After that, went for the LLP class. So dammit boring sia! After that walked to the bus stop and took it until Bedok Interchange and took taxi from there. This time around I brought back my laptop with me. I walked kind of a loser... Walked so slow.... And today is a record for me as I never eat since 8 o'clock last night until now (6.19). I never take my breakfast coz I'm to nervous. I never take my recess coz I talked with Shikin and Eve (she also didn't take her recess, so good sia her! Thanx my friend!) in front of the Prefect room, I never take my lunch as I talked with Mr. Neo and I really didn't have any mood to eat, even drink! And later I'll take my dinner at 8 I guess. Hmm.... Today I really don't want to eat anything. My aunty just called me (around 4.30) and not allowed me to eat KFC (I also don't want, as I don't have any mood to eat for today! My mood changed because of my feeling to give up that become stronger!). After that reached home, checked my homework for tomorrow and I can't find any, so I go online and update my blogs and check every single inbox I have.

I feel such a loser. I don't know whether I still can strong enough to face it. I really don't know. I'm a LOSER, I have NO HOPE at all! I studied it, I studied everything, I tried my BEST to do it, BUT yet I still failed. I think I'm gonna to drop the whole thing (probably the school also)... I don't want to do it, I think about my brother and I know I should not give it up. BUT I'm not strong enough to face it. IF I failed this year, I really don't know how to face my family. I don't want to disappoint them! I tried my best and yet everything still so disappointing! I DON'T KNOW WHAT TO DO! I feel as I lost my faith. I don't want to, but... I feel it anyway.

Thanx friends who sit and support me when I feel down, when I want to give up. Thanx that you still care about me. Thanx to be sensitive enough to know the change of my mood. Thanx for EVRYBODY who care about me. I don't know how to reply it.. I just hope the best for you all!

-Aku tahu kutakkan bisa, jadi sperti yang engkau minta (Chrisye)-
**I know I can't do, to be like what you want (Chrisye)**

-GBU-

P.s. for LLP: if you DON'T want to help me, just "keep your mouth shut!" (you always use this term for your students anyway! So, it's not me who impolite to you, but you use it first and I just return your words to you!). If you can't help then say no comment! Your comment is not build the person, you just make the person become worse!!! Hope you're not being offended by it, coz it's-a-matter-of-fact!

A Very Good Thing To Think

2006-08-20T17:42:00.000+08:00

"GOD IS LOVE "

=> Aku meminta kepada Tuhan untuk menyingkirkan PENDERITAANKU
**I asked GOD to remove my suffer**
--Tuhan menjawab, TIDAK.
**GOD answered, "NO."**
++Itu bukan untuk KU singkirkan, tetapi agar kamu MENGALAHKANNYA
**That's not for ME to remove it, but for you to defeat it.**

=>Aku meminta kepada Tuhan untuk menyembuhkan KECACATANKU
**I asked GOD to heal my disablement**
--Tuhan menjawab, TIDAK
**GOD answered, "NO."**
++Karena jiwa adalah SEMPURNA, badan hanyalah SEMENTARA
**Because spirit is PERFECT, only body is TEMPORARY**

=>Aku meminta kepada Tuhan untuk menghadiahkan ku KESABARAN
**I asked GOD to present patience for me**
--Tuhan menjawab, TIDAK
**GOD answered, "NO."**
++Kesabaran adalah HASIL DARI KESULITAN, itu tidak dihadiahkan, itu harus dipelajari
**Patience is a RESULT FROM DIFFICULTIES, it's not a present, you must LEARN it.**

=>Aku meminta kepada Tuhan untuk memberiku KEBAHAGIAAN
**I asked GOD to give me happiness**
--Tuhan menjawab, TIDAK
**GOD answered, "NO."**
++AKU memberimu BERKAT, karena kebahagiaan adalah tergantung padamu
**I give BLESS, because happiness depends on you.**

=>Aku meminta kepada Tuhan untuk menjauhkanku dari PENDERITAAN
**I asked GOD to bring me away from suffering**
--Tuhan menjawab, TIDAK
**GOD answered, "NO."**
++Penderitaan menjauhkanmu dari perhatian duniawi & MEMBAWAMU MENDEKAT
PADAKU
**Suffer will bring you away from wordly attention and BRING YOU NEARER TO ME**

=>Aku meminta kepada Tuhan segala hal sehingga aku dapat MENIKMATI HIDUP
**I asked GOD everything so that I can ENJOY MY LIFE**
--Tuhan menjawab, TIDAK
**GOD answered, "NO."**
++Tuhan akan MEMBERIMU HIDUP, sehingga kamu dapat menikmati segala hal
**GOD will GIVE you LIFE, so that you can enjoy everything**

=>Aku meminta kepada Tuhan untuk MENUMBUHKAN ROHKU
**I asked GOD to grow my spirit**
--Tuhan menjawab, TIDAK
**GOD answered, "NO."**
++Kamu harus menumbuhkannya sendiri, tetapi AKU Tuhan Allahmu akan memangkas untuk membuatmu BERBUAH
**You can grow it on your own, but I, YOUR GOD will cut it to make you grow**

=>Aku meminta kepada Tuhan membantu mengasihi orang lain seperti DIA mengasihiku
**I asked GOD to help me to love others as HE loves me**
--Tuhan menjawab, "AAAHHH, AKHIRNYA KAMU MENGERTI"
**GOD answered, "Aaaahhh, Finally YOU UNDERSTAND."**

-_+HARI INI ADALAH MILIKMU, JANGAN SIA-SIAKAN+_-
**TODAY IS YOURS, DON'T WASTE IT!**

Bagi dunia kamu mungkin hanyalah seseorang, tetapi bagi seseorang kamu mungkin dunianya.
**For the world, you may just one person, but for somebody, you may his/her world**

GOD BLESS YOU ALWAYS..............

Shopping Mania (request by Queen of Shopping :p)

2006-08-20T12:32:00.000+08:00

www.louisvuitton.com : Louis Vuitton
www.loewe.com : Loewe
www.calvinklein.com : Calvin Klein
www.burberry.com : Burberry
www.takashimaya.com.sg : Takashimaya
www.guess.com : Guess
www.gucci.com : Gucci
www.hugoboss.com : Hugo Boss
www.charlesandkeith.com : Charles and Keith
www.sisley.com : Sisley
www.yvessaintlaurent.com : Yves Saint Laurent
www.ralphlauren.com : Ralph Lauren
www.shiseido.com : Shiseido
www.esprit.com : Esprit
www.chevrolet.com.sg : Chevrolet

I only know those addresses only... The rest I don't know... Sorry ar my friend... Hehehehe.... Need something contact me again, I try to find it for you... =) -GBU-

Unity in Diversity

2006-08-19T17:40:00.000+08:00

Although we come from different race, nationality and religion, we still united as friends (even best friends).... There is no way to separate our friendship because of different race or nationality or religion. We may come from different places, but yet, we still together in the same class, 303. Hmmm... Got nothing to say....

The photo star: *Elvina* *Evelina* *Ili* *Joyce* *Lay Hoon* *Nathiya* *Shikin*

So Boringgg

2006-08-19T17:15:00.000+08:00

I got nothing to do now..... I do a LOT of daydreams today... My mind is blank for a long time, can't think for other thing (what thing? Sue Ting... Hehehe... Just kidding lar... Don't be offended!). I don't know what should I do to fill my free time! Aaaa... I wish today is a school today (recently I LOVE the school so much... Don't know why...) so I got something to do... I don't want to do the Mr. Remington Chen homework, but if I never do... wah... he can come after me and scold me (at least Mr. LLP will scold me first before Mr. Chen can scold me).... I got nothing to do... Just update my blogs but also don't know what to write... I'm thinking of walk around, but don't want lar.... so hot ler outside... What must I do? Sleep? Don't want, later tonight I can't sleep early... Go to friendster? Don't want, to boring already (1 acc full, another acc for VVIP only)... Go to youtube? Don't want, got nothing new... I don't know what must I do... Study? Walaw... If I study, that's mean I got pHd lor.... I never study on Saturday (except the next week got test or what....) Lalala.... I don't know what to do.... My brain filled by him only... His face, his voice, his appearance, his behaviour.... Must I think about him? Don't care lar... Bye... I want to upload my photo here! -GBU-

CA RESULT RELEASED!

2006-08-18T18:56:00.000+08:00

WOW... today was so... serious! First of all, my CA result was released and at least I pass ALL of the subjects that released today. The 3 subjects were Mother Tongue (Malay Language for me), E Math and A Math.

Mother Tongue (aka Malay, dun ask me again why I choose this thing!): 54/100
E Math: 29/30 (almost full marks and I knew why I can't get full marks since I finished the test)
A Math: 19/30 (a lot of careless mistakes, kinda regret it, but at least I pass it!)

So, that's all for my CA results that being released today! OK... I know it's not that fabulous! First of all, the Malay Language, I keep on using Bahasa Indonesia instead of Malay and the teacher keeps on scream on me! She forced me to do it with Malay and not with Indonesia. BUT at least I still pass the subject although I AM using Bahasa Indonesia... Hehehehe....
Second of all, the E Maths, as I said previously the question was kind of easy and I did a stupid thing. In fact I did it: -pq(3+q)... The correct one is (q-p)(3+q)... Kind of wasted right... But.. It's ok! I got A1 already at least for it... Huahahahaha....
Third of all, the A Maths, quite sad about it. First time when teacher released the marks, my mark was 18/30, then I discovered that Mr. LLP mark me wrongly, so I complained to him lar... Then he add 1 more mark to mine become 19/30 (battle and debate for 1 mark only! How imprtant it is! Mr Chua said, "With 1 mark, you may change a grade!"). In fact a lot of people much better than me.. BUT... it's not the end yet! I still can survive with the next tests! No doubt about it!

Anyway in school was nothing happened actually. I just did a small thing. For example: inside a class I will untie my hair and when we change class or recess I will tie my hair untightly. This idea was come out unexpectedly when I assembled this morning on parade square...

NOW: I don't know why my pierce is bleeding NON-STOP! How??? Aiyah... the blood dun want to stop ler.... I put alcohol also no effect.... Make it just bleed more.... HOW?? Anybody know how to solve it?

With ALL I am

2006-08-17T20:47:00.000+08:00

WITH ALL I AM
Reuben Morgan

VERSE 1:
INTO YOUR HANDS, I COMMIT AGAIN
WITH ALL I AM, FOR YOU LORD
YOU HOLD MY WORLD, IN THE PALM OF YOUR HANDS
AND I AM YOURS FOREVER

CHORUS:
JESUS, I BELIEVE IN YOU
JESUS, I BELONG TO YOU
YOU'RE THE REASON THAT I LIVE
THE REASON THAT I SING
WITH ALL I AM

VERSE 2:
I WALK WITH YOU WHEREVER YOU WILL GO
THROUGH TEARS AND JOY I'LL TRUST IN YOU
AND I WILL LIVE IN ALL OF YOUR WAYS
YOUR PROMISES FOREVER

BRIDGE:
I WILL WORSHIP
I WILL WORSHIP, YOU

It's a song that I love so much. It's so meaningful, teach me alot of things. It's not only an usual song, but it teaches me how to keep my faith on HIM, it teaches me not to give up easily. I found a lot of lesson from this song. It also teach me to praise and worship HIM, teach me how to appreciate HIM although if my life is on down situation. THANX to people who introduce me to this song. It's not only meaningful but also fruitful for me. Thanx sis! -GBU-

Hmm... Special Day

2006-08-17T17:05:00.000+08:00

Today is a special day for me. A lot of things happened today.

First of All: I reached school and studied Physics (a thing that I have never done before), memorized ALL the Newton's Law! Read through my summary about it (4 chapters in 6 pages!) I tried to concentrate when Nats came to me and sat beside me and talked about a lot of stuffs (majority all of the non-sense lar...)... After that, Eve came and join us and we talked about constant velocity and the movement. I also not so sure and refer to my note to answer it. After that Shikin came and I told her about a lot of stuffs (basically all about a bomb) and she told me about her stuffs (DOUBLE secret!) and then Joyce came also and talked again. So basically, this morning I can't do any review because I talked more than I read my summary. After that I just read it when I got my silent reading time. And a teacher caught me because I read my summary and not read my newspaper (my newspaper for today is kind of rubbish actually) but then he let me off and read my summary, I guess he knew why I read it! And you know who the teacher? Mr. Ryan Neo (again...)

Second of All: My Physics test was unspeakable and unpredicatable (the questions and the marks!). After finished my test paper, go for A Math class (and LLP go and scold like hell all the way!) after that got Chem class (not really fun and not really boring, basically it was to usual...) after that recess (got nothing happened... so boring...). After that English (all the stupid-funny stuffs happened, all about "Speak Good English") after that home period and you know what LLP did? Make us do the 10.2 and 10.4 A Math (fun lar actually... coz I like maths ma...). After that break for lunch (30 mins only... so short sia...)

Third of All: One of my family died early in this morning (around 3 o'clock Indonesia time = 4 o'clock Singapore time). I'm not really sad in fact, I just quite shock if you ask me... Because I never expect such of this thing will happened now... I knew she was old enough, but yet I never expect she would die today... Hmm... Better no comment...

Fourth of All: Continued with my lesson (supposedly E Math but changed to A Math) and LLP gave back our paper and you know I got how much? FULL marks! (half of the class also got lar in fact... :p) After that finished all the questions and went home. Eve and me walked like worm like that sia... So slow... In fact I don't want to go home... I want to stay at school until 5 plus lar.... Want to see you-know-who ma.... After that bought a nice bubble tea for myself (to appreciate my effort to study... hehehe...) and then I took bus to interchange and you know what? I met Shikin and Joyce inside the bus (as I guess already) and we all went to Bedok Interchange bought sushi and ate and go home.

Fifth of All: When reached home, I went online and updating and later in around 30 mins I guess, my aunty's friend will appear on my condo door. This friend of my aunty's is quite special (nyentrik bahasa Indonesia-nya). Brand head-to-toe, exactly like my aunty (but not like me ar... Wo shi mei you qian ma...). If not LV than Loewe I guess or other thing that have a high class like that lar..... And now, I'm waiting for her... Hope she still remember me... Hehehehe......

Sixth of All: Bye... Later I update again if I remember what must I write! Hehehe... See you! And thanks if you read my blogs continuously! Thank you! =) -GBU-

Copy from JOYCE blogs'

2006-08-15T17:51:00.000+08:00

01. Your name plus "poo"
**Elvina poo (???)**

02. Two feelings at the moment?
**Happy and confuse**

03. What are you listening to right now?
**My air con sound**

04. A part of a song lyric that's in your mind?
**You got to believe, you got to be strong... You got to have faith on it...
Never give up... He sends His Love...**

05. The highlight of your week?
**Common test and planning to make Math Counsellor shirts! :)**

06. What are you craving to have right now?
**Nasi Pecel and Rujak Cingur**

07. Any unforgettable childhood memories?
**My math teacher asked me to give her a rule and I gave her a textbook**

08. A not-so-good childhood memory?
**Bully a secondary one student when I was still in Indonesia... Make the failure push up 30 times and crawled round and round for 3 times (basketball courts' size)**

09. What are your nicknames?
**Vin -- Elpina -- Nonik -- Xiu Li**

10. Your three plans for tomorrow?
**Do the best for E Math**
**Tie my hair untightly**
**Prepare to run from the bloody teacher**

11. Are you thinking of someone right now?
**AG -- bomb from 421 -- VJC**

12. Are you single?
**Yes, currently. But I'm not available as I like 3 people in one time!**

13.What do you want?
**Fly back to Indonesia and pick my brother up and bring him over here**

14. Say anything you like to whoever is reading your answers?
**God bless you!**

16. Are you feeling hungry?
**Not really**

17. Who do you miss right now?
**My brother and bomb from 421**

18. Last friend you talked to online?
**EVELINA LARISA**

19. What do you like about the night?
**I no need to think about test on my dream on my night sleep**

20. If you visit a farm, what would you like to see?
**A cute farmer!**

21. When you were a kid, what did you want to be when you grew up?
**Be a sucessful and famous person**

22. Last gift?
**Hmmm... If I say a ring, would you believe it?**

23. Did you like it?
**Yeah... It's very valuable anyway...**

24. Do you play an instrument?
**Sure! Piano still the best**

25. What song did you last hear?
**He sends HIS love**

26. Person you hate most?
**Hmm... who ar? I guess my previous classmate in Indonesia...**

27. Who makes you laugh the most?
**Hmm...Eve... Shikin... Joyce... Nats...**

28. What makes you smile?
**When I see somebody smiling or talking or laughing**

29. Who do YOU have a crush on?
**AG -- VJC -- bomb from 421**

30. Three person you want him/her to do this quiz?
**No need lar... Coz I did it coz I want it not because other people asked me to do so...**

Tuesday...

2006-08-15T17:26:00.000+08:00

Today was quite okay lar.... Early in the morning the bloody teacher caught me AGAIN! I put my hair pin already and yet she still said she WILL CONFISCATE my bus pass FOREVER if I never TIE my hair... Walaw... bloody teacher! Fortunately I could control myself and just smiled like siao like that... Then she walked away then Shikin and me giggling over her. Then we saw a lot of teachers reached school. For example: Mr. Zulkarnain, Mdm. Anisa, Miss Tan, Mr. Eugene Yong, Mr. Chua, Mrs. Yam and Mr. Ryan (quite surprise that he came this morning before 7.25 :p). After that, Eve, Nathiya and Joyce came. And we talked and laughing and giggling like hell. Talked about a lot of non sense things... Hehehe... :p Then I saw Nats brought her school book then I borrowed it from her and read it as my reading material. After that go to Mr. Ivan Teo's homeroom to do MTL test (quite easy... only the parts of PERIBAHASA was damned difficult!). And my life became so boring like that... Go for lesson, back for recess, go for 2 tests in a row. You know what, when got recess right, when Eve and me walked to Mrs. Yam's homeroom, I saw Mr. Ryan Neo and hw was smiling NON-STOP! Then I stopped and I asked him why he smiling and you know what he did? He just smiling again... =__=' Walaw... OK, that's quite strange anyway... Then after school go with Joyce, Shikin and Nats to KFC and talked again there. We talked about a lot of things and we met a lot of people there (Zhi Ying, Genevieve, Lay Hoon, "Cynthia" aka dunno sia... called Shikin as "horny" and called me as "horny's friend") After that, go home, take a bath and then sleep and then wake up and then wash my face than read Geography Textbook and then updating my blogs and then later eat and then go to church... (Pentakosta soalnya.... Ga tau bahasa Inggrisnya apa... :p)

TEST...

MTL: not really that difficult, only one part that one make me not sure. Other than that should be okay.

Social Studies: hmm... I'm not so sure about this. May be for me I answer all the question correctly but the teacher may disagree with me... She also got angry at the class... Cos all of the assignment thing made her disappointed (badly done).

A Math: I lost 8 marks in front of my eyes already... I lost 3 marks coz I did a careless mistake and then 5 marks gone coz I don't know how to solve it. That's all for my test today. I'm not sure lar about all of these things.... Hmmm... What should I do ar? I just try my best and hope everything would be okay... -GBU-

Question by My Friend

2006-08-14T19:40:00.000+08:00

What are you doing now?
**Answering this question lor...**

Where are you now?
**Silly question! Of course in front of my laptop!**

Who sit beside you now?
**No one...

When you answer this survey?
**7.36 P.M**

What things are inside your brain now?
**A lot of things**

Who is inside your brain now?
**My brother and someone from 421**

What is your feeling now?
**Not feel anything**

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What are you wearing now?
**My home cloths**

What did you do just now?
**Updating my blogs**

What will you do after it?
**Study A Math**

Would you give up about something?
**I don't think so... As far I still can do it, why not?**

What subject is the BEST for you?
**Hmmm... So far... E Math

Who is the BEST teacher for that subject?
**For me is Mr. Ryan Neo, coz he can explain to me until I understand.**

Who is the WORST teacher for that subject?
**I don't know coz not ALL math teachers teach me...**

How you find the subject?
**Interesting. It can make me stay overnight only do E Maths question**

What's the WORST subject for you?
**So far.... Either English or Social Studies**

Who is the BEST teacher for that subject?
**I'm not sure, there is no other teacher ever teach me other than Mrs. Gary Chan**

Who is the WORST teacher for that subject?
**I DON'T KNOW!!!**

Do you have any wishes?
**Sure!**

If have, state it! If don't have, why?
**I want to skip all of these mbokamsud questions!**

5 Luckiest person who MUST do all of these questions:
++EVELINA LARISA++
++JOYCE LIM++
++NATHIYA P.++
++JENNIFER FRENTASIA++
++TEO LI MEI++

Common Test aka CA (Continual Assesment) 2

2006-08-14T19:08:00.000+08:00

For you information, my schedule is:
14 August 2006: English and Chemistry
15 August 2006: Mother Tongue, Social Studies and A Math
16 August 2006: E Math and Geography
17 August 2006: Physics

TODAY

English for me was quite ok, but I don't know whether the teacher (Mr. Ivan Teo) will agree with me or not... If my marks is bad, that's mean he DISAGREE with me, but if my marks is good, that's mean he AGREE with me... I don't know what he think about it. (I have a feeling that he will DISAGREE with me, which mean that I'm afraid that my marks will below standard...)

Chemistry for me was half ok half no. WHY was it not okay? Because I just got the problem... The Mdm. Rubbiah thing that one... Only one problem and made me blank already... I was to scared to think... My brain was totally blank... Fortunately GOD still helped me... He brought back my brain so that I can think again... Almost all of the essay question I can do (for me lar... if there is no CARELESS mistakes, everything would be ok) and half of the MCQ I can do it (for me lar... I don't know whether correct or not... I'm not so sure, even until now... Even I forgot the questions after the test because I was to nervous about my 1st problem in PYSS after 7 months there...) Fortunately everything still ok and controlable.

After that got this english lesson with Ms. Wei (new teacher...). And talked about summary things and she made me READ my answer and repeated for 4 TIMES!!! Aaaa.... OMG... can't stand of it man! I'm not confident with my English... I'm not confident with my pronounciation! Made me damn scared sia... After that... All of the nice mix sad mix scared mix nervous feeling attact me! Aaaaa... Somebody help me please.....

P.s. Marka, when you will back to Singapore? Waiting for your call! Hehehe... If you know what I mean lar... :p

Must I Sad or Happy?

2006-08-14T18:23:00.000+08:00

Yeah, today was so strange at school. First of all after recess, a Malay teacher that I don't know her name asked me to tie my hair. OK, I just put a hair pin lor. After that, when she turned her back, I untied my hair and you know what, the teacher screamed at me and asked me to follow her! OMG! Than, I followed her to the staff room. And you know what? She made me bought a hair band from the book shop at my school! She said that if I'm not using that stupid thing, she'll cut my hair! NO WAY for you ma'am to cut my hair, although if I must run from you until my backbone need to operate! After that, I showed her that I bought and USED it already, she confiscated my earring! WTF?? After that she asked me to meet Mr. Martin Chan to get back my bus pass. OK... After that kena scold by Mr. LLP (if u don't want to help me than NO NEED for you to TALK something! Don't be so sarcastic lar cher...), he said that he won't help me coz so many times already his studernts made problems and he wouldn't help me this time around. (SO WHAT?) Then after school, I must wait for Mr. Martin Chan to get back to school coz he was on meeting for about 1 hour (I sms-ed Mr. Ryan Neo and asked him and he told me that they were on the meeting and would back to school in half an hour!). When they reached school, I almost jumped and ran over Mr. Martin Chan (looked like I admire him sia... Please lor...) And he asked me to wait for a while. So scared of him sia... He IS the scariest teacher in the whole PYSS population! Then met with Mr. Ryan Neo, he told me what to do... (so good sia him...). Than Mr. Martin Chan asked me what happened (I guess he want to know whether I'll tell a lie or not) then I just explained lor... Then he go and asked me so many question about the school rule (he think I remember... excuse me... I just 7 MONTHS in PYSS!). Then I just answered whatever thing that I can think on that moment. And you know what, far from my expectation, he talked so NICE and WARM and DID NOT AS STERN AS HE DID when he talked to the whole school! Basically he was NOT scold me at all. He just made me understand about all of the school rule. And as Zhi Ying suggested, I keep on saying "Yes teacher" and "I'm sorry teacher". After that he asked me to talked to the teacher (I discovered that the teacher called Mdm. Rubbiah) and I can ask for my earring from her. I tried to find her, but can't find. One more time I sms-ed Mr. Ryan Neo. Here is the conversation:
ELV: Did Mdm. Rubbiah go home already?
Mr. Ryan: I'm not sure...
ELV: Aaa... I need her. Help me check cher... Please... Please...
Mr. Ryan: I don't see her in the staffroom
ELV: Oh ok. She got handphone? Help me cher... Please...
Mr. Ryan: I have no idea what's her no.
ELV: Oh ok. Thanx so much... :)
Than after that I found Mdm. Rubbiah walked to the staffroom. So, I just pop up in front of her and talked to her as NICE as possible and SMILE as MANY as possible. Made her talked nicely back to me and smiling somemore. AND yet she still can make a joke when I almost die when we talked about it seriously but NICELY. Quite complicated though. Adter finish all the problems, I sent sms to Mr. Ryan again.
ELV: I met her already. I solved my problem with her already. Thanx cher.
Mr. Ryan: O.k.
Hahaha.... I finished all of the problems! WHY was I asking for Mr. Ryan's help and NOT Mr. LLP's help? ANS: Because Mr. LLP keep smirking at me and he said that don't want to help me, so for what I begged for his help? I choose Mr. Ryan because he is the only teacher that I know the handphone number (of course I have Mr. LLP also) and I'm sure that he WILL help me. AND I'm correct!

Today I learnt something: be polite to people and people will polite to you (Seemed very easy but it's NOT as easy as you hear it! Especially if there is an occasion that made you felt angry or scared! Trust me...). People's appearance can bluff you (example: Mr. Martin Chan). Although you don't know the people, they helped you to learn something. AND finally for today: NOT every time your FORM TEACHER will help you! In this case other class's form teacher help me! Those're the points that I learnt today.

Now, I want to serious on my study for tomorrow tests: Mother Tongue (no need to study one... USUALLY I'll pass), Social Studies (tomorrow's test on Source Base Question, so there is no point study this thing) and A MATH (Ms. Pow Wee Wee and Mdm. Anissa taught us in the school already, so... at home only revising and hope tomorrow's paper won't that difficult!). A good news: tomorrow Mr. LLP won't around, that's mean, I no need see his boring face! That's mean... I'll be very happy tomorrow (I'll not happy IF tomorrow I will take pink form and there is no my FT who must sign the thing.). Hahaha... Such a good thing! OK... See you... -GBU-

Pict of My Current Desktop Layout

2006-08-13T16:34:00.000+08:00

My Current Desktop Layout (as the survey question asked me about my desktop layout, I'll just show you!)

Survey (MUST do, Ili said)

2006-08-13T15:56:00.000+08:00

Favourite colour:
= Depends on my mood (happy=pink, sad=black+white+purple, other occasion=green)
Favourite Food:
= Indonesian Food (especially the CHILLI!!!)
Favourite Movie:
= Passion of The Christ
= Harry Potter Series
Favourite Sport:
= Basketball
= Other than that... Nope. Since I have MC for 6 months (*evil laughter*)
Favourite Day of the week:
= Tuesday is the BEST! =)
Favourite Ice cream:
= Hmmm... Mango and Grape Flavour by Swenzens
Favourite TV show:
= Nope. Since I never watch any television programmes when I'm in Singapore

Current Mood:
= Sad and Lonely and Miss my Dearest Brother
Current taste:
= What you mean by my taste?
Current Clothes:
= AX shirts and Giordano Pants
Current Desktop:
= Maths Department of Ping Yi Secondary School
Current Toenail Colour:
= Glittery Green
Current Time:
= 3.59 PM
Current Annoyance:
= Tomorrow is my CA. Aaaa.... This thing kills me slowly!
Current thoughts:
= What's my answers for all of these questions!

First Best Fren:
= In Indonesia: Maria Yashinta Gunawan (not my sister although we have same surname)
= In Singapore: Last Year: Lenny Ng
This Year: Norhashikin bte. M. Norman
First Crush:
= Forgot already...
First Movie:
= Forgot already...
First Lie:
= I got headache so I can't go to school/church (so lazy when I was in Indonesia)
First Music:
= Hmmm... What ar? How about all the Westlife songs?

Last Cigarette:
= You think I'am smoking, aren't you? Ckckck... I'm not smoking lah aunty!
Last Drink:
= Yakult... Hehehe...
Last car ride:
= This morning... Why?
Last Crush:
= Currently is my AG (only Shikin know what's AG... :p)
Last Phone call:
= My mom (from Indonesia called me only asked where was me that time!)
Last CD played:
= I have no CDs with me. The only thing that I have is only my Winamp (music software inside my laptop) and my MP3 player. (It's-a-matter-of-fact)

Have u ever dated any of ur BESTFRIENDS:
= YES!!! (For the first and the last time in the whole of my life!)
Have u ever been arrested:
= You think I'm a prisoner, aren't you? I'm not a bad girl lar aunty! So... No need police to arrest me! Hehehe...
Have u ever skinny-dipped:
= What does this question means?
Have u ever kissed sumone u don't know:
= Walaw... You think I got pHd (permanent Head damage), is it? No lar... Please, dun ask me such a mbokamsud question! Hehehe...

5 luckiest Person:
=EVELINA LARISA
=TEO LI MEI
=NATHIYA
=SHIKIN (only if you updating your blogs!)
=JOYCE (do it double! One for Ili, one for me! Hehehe... :p)

I LOVE MY LITTLE BROTHER SO MUCH!!!

2006-08-13T14:32:00.000+08:00

Hmm... Today was nothing much happened. Just a boring thing that occured. When I was so boring, I watched You Tube and found a cool Fort Minor-Where'd You Go. From there, I realised that I really miss my brother. I miss every single thing that he always do to me (aka disturb me). I don't know what to do. I miss him so much, but there is no way for me to meet him. Especially with his condition now made me really freaking dead and sad. i can't stop thinking about my brother. I miss him so much. I love him so much. I tried to be more protective to him, but I can't do much, coz I'm in Singapore and he is in Indonesia. Such a sad thing that I must stay far away from him. Recently my feeling to him become stronger, I don't know what will happen. I always hope the best for him! I don't want his future in danger just because of his problems-that-until-now-can't-be-healed (Mt. Elizabeth Hospital say so, I read about it there). I don't want this thing happened to me. I realised that he MUST fly over to Singapore for his own good. But, if people said that by putting me in Singapore, it'll solve the problem, I can't agree with it. I'm not so sure whether I can suceed here. I even not so sure whether I can pass my final year exam or not. Everything so unpredictable, leave me with my own feeling, leave me with my own scared. I can't do anything. For a mean time, I don't have any confidence on my own, I don't know how to protect and help my brother. I DON'T KNOW WHAT TO DO! But I also don't want to give up easily, while the fact is really sickening. I can't just close my eyes about this problem. I CAN'T! I promise I'll do whatever (although the things are dangerous or silly or crazy) I can do for my brother! No one can stop me from doing this thing! People make A problem with him, that's mean they make 2 problems with me. I'll reply what they do to my brother doubled or even tripled! People may think that I'm arogant. People may think that I'm overprotective. BUT, It's my decision. It's my life and I can do whatever thing that I want to do! SO, don't stop me to protect my brother. Don't make me must do something to you just because you disturb my brother!!! I LOVE HIM SO MUCH! I LOVE HIM MORE THAT EVERYTHING IN THIS WORLD!!!! -GBU-

St. John Ambulance CCA Activities

2006-08-12T22:20:00.000+08:00

Ok... I'll try to go in detail abou it. First of all, we reached City Hall MRT. From there we decided to go Suntec City by Marina Mandarin Hotel way. Before we can reach Marina Mandarin, we got 'lost' to Marina Square. From there, we found a way to go to Suntec City and crossed the overbridge. From there, we got the idea to go to Fountain of Wealth. When we reached there, the security guard was looking at us. BUT, so what? We haven't do anything what? Then, Genevieve and me decided to go and touch the water of the Fountain of Wealth. We turned for 3 rounds and after that, we reached Shikin and Lay Hoon, share the water with them. Then from there, we went up to the top part of the building, which is near the road. From there, I started to encourage Shikin to raise the money by asking the tourists. And you know what? The tourist gave us a good respond. The gave us the money! YAY! Our first money. From there, we crossed the road and reached the place and I realised that the place is Suntec City tower 5. Shikin, Lay Hoon, Genevieve and me were waiting there, try to get some money. And then, Lay Hoon went on to her phone and talked for quite a long time, and it drove Genevieve mad. Anyway, when Lay Hoon finished her call, they decided to go back to Bedok by taxi. Left Shikin and me behind. We still want to do it there, because got a lot of tourists and CGs. Hahaha... Then, our adventure was began. We got a lot of notes money. From $2 - $10. Hahaha... So nice... Then, came this irritating girl. She tried to distribute her flyers exactly in front of us, blocked our way to woo the people to donate for us. I thought she felt that we didn't like her appearance then this girl like walk around, left Shikin and me there, donated A LOT OF money. After that, this irritating girl came again sia... OMG... It's ok, she tried to stand in front of us, we would stand in front of her. Brought us nearer to the taxi stand. There, I got this crazy idea, why not asked the taxi driver to donate for us also (creative what?)? There, here we go, asked money from the tourists, shoppers AND taxi drivers. And 1.30, we decided to finish it and go back to Bedok area. And we almost lost when we realised that we got a wrong way.Finally I found the way, based on what I remembered about that place when last time went with my roommate when I was still in Novena HELL. Then, from there we reached City Hall MRT (it seemed to be far away anyway...). Walaw... we ran sia... But in the end, we still late... Actually we must reach Bedok at 2 o'clock, but in the end, we reacehd Bedok at around 2.35 (late 35 minutes sia... the worst on my life)... Basically that was what happened today. After that Shikin and me went to my house. Chat with so many people like hell and then finally finished when Shikin's mother called me and asked Shikin to go home ASAP. After she went home, I got my tution until 9.35 and it was damned tiring! Anyway it FUN! I like it!!! Hehehe... I like to trip to somewhere and then raise money like this! Hahaha... Good experience. =). Although we received a lot of rejection, but we still can put smile on our face, make it like 'nothing happen'. Hahaha... I think that's enough for me for today! 2 posts already sia... ;P. OK, see you soon! Bye... :p -GBU-

Today... FUN!!!

2006-08-12T21:38:00.000+08:00

Today was quite fun. I must woke up early in the morning, around 6.45 to switch on the heater coz I must take a bath asap. I must reach school before 8 in the morning. I guess, although I reach school at 07.59.59 it would consider that I'm not late. :p. Anyway, I got this chem make up class, start at 8 in the morning and finished at around 9.30. After that, with Shikin, Lay Hoon and Genevieve, went to McD, to take our breakfast. After that, we went to Suntec City and try to ask people to donate money for us. Then we went to Fountain of Wealth, Genevieve and me decided to touch the water since it's open for public. Turn around the water, touched it for 3 rounds and luck will come to you. In fact Genevieve and me were helping Shikin and Lay Hoon to raise money for the St. John Ambulance (their CCA). Talk about CCA, the library sack me off without giving me a chance to explain my reason to them. Last time, I still haven't discover my backbone problem, so I go and skipped a lot of duty hours. Then, they just sacked me off. If I said I got this cackbone problem, they will ask for my MC, but the problem is that last time I still don't know yet this problem, how I can get a MC or how can I explain it to them? Back to Shikin, Lay Hoon, Genevieve and me's adventure. After a while, Genevieve and Lay Hoon decided to go back to Bedok area, but Shikin and me still stayed at Suntec City. A lot of people donated their money for us. I bet on Shikin's tin, there is must be AT LEAST $200, because a lot of people donate $10. After 2 o'clock, we must go back to Bedok in a rush. We reached there 2.35 (late 35 minutes). From there, we bought a bubble tea and then we went to my house. Reached my house then we ate indomie and pineapple rice. Then, we surfed the internet, found a lof of things. Made us quite shock. While surfing internet, we also chat with Eve and Nathalie. Quote interesting conversation. =). Shikin went home at around 6.25 (she wanted to take the shuttle bus) because her mom forced her to do so. I think her mom and kill me if I make Shikin stay for a bit longer time. Then, my guardian forced me to eat before my tution teacher come at 7. So, I ate my indomie lar... After that, I got my tution going on until 9.35 (so long sia... but it's fun :p). We talked about a lot of stuffs (improve my English what?)... That's all for today lar... Nothing much... Basically only fun things happened for today. Nothing much, but it's fun. I'll tell you in detail later. =). Bye gals and ** *** *** ***** **** aka "bomb from 421" (if you got what I mean!). -GBU-

Another Happy Day

2006-08-11T17:22:00.000+08:00

Yeah... today was so nice and happy. Even the weather is also nice... =). The only thing that not good today is that, this morning got chem test and I forgot how to calculate Mr. So clever right me... Yeah... I don't wanna remember that thing! After the bloody chem, I got a whole nice day. First of all, I can see his face the whole recess (what a luck for me.... :P). Second of all, somebody got give Shikin a bouquet of RED ROSES! So lucky sia that girl... Got a lot of admirers! Hahaha... Then reached the E Math class on Mr. LLP homeroom. Than, got a test on phytagoras theorem, trigonometry and bearing. Not really that tough actually. After finish the test, Shikin and me went to canteen, want to see the you-know-who. Hahaha *evil laughter*..... After that, went to bus stop. And you know what? The bus was bloody full and people can't even enter it anymore. Good luck to the bus! Hope it won't stop in the middle of the journey caused by overload! Then, met with a lot of funny people. Then, I reached home and pingsan. And then, Eve woke me up by calling me... Force me to log in to the internet, to look on Joyce's blogs. After that, I just update my blogs loh... No choice... My tution still later at 7.30 and now still 5.44, so... I have a lot of time to battle with you! Hahaha....

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Today is SO FABULOUS!

2006-08-10T20:06:00.000+08:00

Yeah, I'm so happy today. Today was so FABULOUS!!! After having my tution early in the morning (0900-1100), I bought a nice pasta from Pasta Mania for myself and then took a bath and finally, go to Bedok Interchange, waiting for Joyce and Eve (she never come, she was waiting at the ECP (East Coast Park). Then, finally Ma'am Joyce reached Bedok Interchange and then she wanted to take her breakfast, therefore we went to KFC and took her lunch there (I never take, very full already). Then reached ECP in 30 minutes (took a cab already!). Met with Eve, rent 2 bikes (1 for Eve and 1 for Joyce and me). Then all the funny-scary things started! Wah... The thing was damn so scary leh.... For the start, Joyce and me almost fell down from the bike! Fortunately it never happened! Then cycling like hell, speeding like a Concorde (unfortunately I never bring any speedometer with me, if yes I can tell you how fast we cycled! Or probably I can make a speed-time graph and/or velocity-time graph!). Then stopped for a while at Bedok Jetty, wait for Eve, coz she lost. Then when she reached there, we took a lot of photos (I'm sorry I can't show it before Joyce put it at her blogs, because I never take a single photo from my handphone). We took photos like hell... Then we continued cycling and you know what, we almost reach CHANGI AIRPORT! I asked Joyce and Eve whether they bring their passport with them... (lame joke... =(...). Then we turned back and stopped again at Bedok Jetty, to buy a bottle of drink and after that, we must speeding again if we don't want to pay the penalty... When we were on our way, Eve was competing with Joyce and me to reach the bicycle renting place. And you know what? Joyce and me won the 'competition'! After returning the bike to the uncle, we took a lot of photos again and now with somebody's help (THANX aunty!). From there, we went to McD to take a drink and I took a fried fries. From there we took a cab to Bugis Junction to take a NEOprint. Reached there, Joyce bought a hair accesorries. Then we took 2 NEOprints. The thing was damned crowded sia... And the counter people made us wasting our time listening to her instruction to decorate our photo (please lor xiao jie.. we are not that stupid!) and not to decorate the photo, make it so.... (I can't find any vocab that match with the condition, because it was so.......). Then we took another NEOprints. This time around the result was very nice! After all of these things, we walked around and took a look at 77th street (Eve wanted to buy a new earring, but in the end she never buy). It was so fun. From there, we straight away go home, by taking MRT. Before that, we got this conversation:
JOYCE (JOY): We will go home using MRT, right? [Looked to Eve then to me]
EVELINA (EVE): Ya lah... Of course.... [Looked to Joyce then to me]
ELVINA (ELV): Why you people look to me like that sia?
JOY: I know you want to cabut (go away) using taxi right?
ELV: Hahaha... How you know ar? Not bad ar....
EVE: You mah always take taxi what? So... It's very obvious lor...
Then three of us starting to laugh again. Then Joyce wanted to buy Takopachi, but then the queue was so long and she cancelled it. I offered her to buy Old Chang Kee, but instead of saying Old Chang Kee, I said Bee Ching Hiang. Then you know what, I heard Eve talked, "What? Best Denki?" Walaw... All of these conversation so mixed up like that sia.... Then we reached the MRT station and took it to Kembangan (for Eve) and Bedok (for Joyce and me). Along the way, we talked about a lot of stuffs. For example: lesbian, brush the teeth and all about braces. Then, on the way to come out from the Bedok MRT, Joyce and me talked about the 421 guy things. Wahaha... So fun! Today was so fun! Reached home, wanted took a bath, but then Eve called me for awhile about this tagboard problem. Then I just took a bath and after that checked the tagboard thing while I was hairdrying my hair. After that, here I am, in front of my laptop, checking everything and updating my blogs. =) Ok lor... May be that's all for today. See you tomorrow gals and ** *** *** ***** ****aka 421 guy (he won't reach school before 7.25, guarantee 100%, he never failed to do it anyway!). Ok, bye... See you! Ciao! -GBU-

Dear READERS

2006-08-09T16:08:00.000+08:00

From what I see, that a lot of people very good in complaining and talking non sense about somebody else. First of all, what I can say to you is Good Luck, you start a problem and you MUST solve it by your own. There is NO way for you to just run away from the fact. Don't think by never put your real name to complain about other people, you will always safe! When you start to complain about other people, do you think about their feeling? Do you think what will happen to them when they know about it? Are there any good for you if you always complain about other people? Please, think about it! You complain about other people and using all of those vulgarity and bad words are NOT a way out to solve a problem. It will just add some more problems! You may think that I'm SARCASTIC! You may think that I'm RUDE! You may think that I'm EGOIST to tell you all of these things! But, please lor... Before you think like that, why don't you just think about yourself? Are you NOT sarcastic? Are you NOT rude? Are you NOT egoist? Please, before complaining about other people, complain about yourself first! You think yourself is very perfect, don't you? In fact, no one is perfect! NOT even you and me! Second of all, DON'T use any vulgarity! My friend, Evelina is correct, people who used all of those bad words and vulgarity just show that they are LACK of EDUCATION and their parents never teach them how to behave themself. How pity they are! If you disagree with people, don't use vulgarity, bad words and other language to debate with people! Use your brain to debate and not your muscle or your bad words! All of these things explain why I don't want to put cBox, because irresponsible people will write on it without using their real name and talk about all of those non sense! Thanx for your understanding! -GBU-

So Fab Day

2006-08-09T15:45:00.000+08:00

This is my photo with my new stuff (a nice necklace, quite cheap you know... In Orchard, found such a cheap stuff, MUST buy! Hehehe...) Love it man!!

TODAY is Singapore National Day. Happy Birthday Singapore!! Today I celebrate it by go to Orchard and did a little shopping there. I don't want to tell you how much I spent today (only Joyce knew it, don't tell anybody Joyce!!) I went from my house at around 10 o'clock, without breakfast, because I got excited already! Hehehe... Then called a taxi and went to Takashimaya. Met a lot of Indonesian people there! WOW! They have all of these fabulous sale. Disc. from 20% to 75%. WOW.... First stop: Takshimaya. Walked around the places. I went in to every single shop at every single floor (met a LOT of CGs, from different countries!). Second stop: Wisma Atria. Same like Takashimaya, walked in to every single shop. And I bought nail polish, Guess perfumes and mask in Sasa. Third Stop: Tang. I bought a juice there, quiet nice lar... Fourth Stop: Lucky Plaza. There, I bought necklace and bracelet (2 for $10, cheap right? I just afraid later my skin got itchy!). Fifth Stop: Paragon. There, I walked around, bought toys for my little bro (I'm thinking how to send it to him...). Then went to Market Place, bought a box of Champagne Grape, nice taste! From there, I went to Meritus Mandarin Hotel to go to Esprit. There, I bought a bottle of make-up removal, just in case I need it (actually I need to use it every Sunday). From there, I went to Cathay Cineleisure to take my lunch and see whether I can go for a movie. I took my lunch at Indonesian Barbeque Cuisine, if I'm not wrong. While eating, I took a look at the TV and read what movie are in. Hmm... I don't like all of the movies so I cancel my plan to go for the movie. From there I took a cab from Meritus Mandarin Hotel. On the way, Eve called me and told me that something happened again at Joyce blogs. And I just tell her that I'll open her blogs asap as I reach home. And now here I am opening every single inbox of my e-mail addresses, checking all of those blogs of my friends' and finally updating my dearest blogs. =). AND I also took a pict of mine, inside my bedroom with my new stuff (you saw the photo at the top of this post, I really don't know how to manage my photo in blogspot). Hehehe... :P =). -GBU-

Hope can Updload!

2006-08-08T15:29:00.000+08:00

Final photo: The Merlion, created by class 303. Produced by Wong Sue Ting. Idea by (probably) Mr. Lee Lye Peng, form teacher. It went for the Float Competition! Hope we will win. =) Anyway, it made from unused properties.

4th photo: 6 of us posed. Clockwise: Shikin, Joyce, Nathiya, Ili, Elvina (me) and Eve. I guess 6 of this people are the most cheer in the whole class 303 population.

3rd photo: Mr. Lee Lye Peng (Mr. LLP) our form teacher in action for the Volley Ball match between 'math' teachers and the students. He acted so many pose but can't take all of his picts, later my handphone confiscated by the teachers).

2nd photo: Mr. Ryan Neo (one of the math teachers in PYSS and also Math Counsellors teacher-in-charge) in action to play the Volley Ball. I guess he can't play it, he may want to calculate the gradient of the ball first if he wants to smash the ball, make it sure will reach the opposite court. Hehehe... Lame joke... =(

1st photo: another pose by Mr. Lee Lye Peng. He smashed the ball strongly. WOW.... And everytime he jumped, could see his flash obviously! Hmmm.... Dunno what to comment about it. For some people it may disgusting, but for other people it may so interesting... Dunno ler... What u think?

I don't know what's wrong with the blogspot, all the photos are upside down, so I also made the comment upside down... Sorry for the incovenience! =)

Today... May Be the Best Day

2006-08-08T13:50:00.000+08:00

Today may be the best day for this month! Today my school was celebrating National Day Celebration (NDC). You know what, I almost came late this morning! I reached school by 7.23 only 2 minutes before the second bell rang. Why? Because I got trap inside a bloody traffic jam! I came to school, the whole school looked like caught in fire like that, coz everybody used red shirt! So scary, the lower sec also assembly at the Parade Square... Wah, so many people! And I tried to catch a glimpse around to find 421 people, and I can't even find it. After so long then I knew that he came late, at least reached school after 7.25! OK, forget about him! Mr. I-dunno-who, announced to the whole school that we would start the flag ceremony. Generally, it's very good ceremony, just by then a lot of people talking away and didn't respect their own flag state! Compared with Indonesian ceremony, Singaporean way is much shorter and more simple than Indonesian. In Indonesia, we still got a lot of things such as the 5 country's foundations and something like basic foundation of the country and whatever things like that... Then, in my school, they played the national song using band. One word: NICE! I really impressed! It's my own opinion anyway. After that, all the Singaporeans need to take thir pledge. Another thing that impressed me. After that, quite rainy lightly, the school went and divided us to the respective places. For sec 3, they put us in front of the Parade Square. And we will do the Netball or Captain ball, I'm not so sure which one is correct. While they were playing, Nats, Eve and me went to the Volley ball court beside the canteen to watch the volley (obviously!). That time got the teacher vs the student. Got my form teacher, Mr. LLP (will show you later the photos), my CME teacher, Ms. Chan, HOD of Mother Tongue (if I'm not wrong), Mr. Zulkarnaen, my English teacher, Mr. Ivan Teo, one of math teacher, Mr. Ryan Neo and finally don't know the name of these teachers (supposedly math teachers also if I'm not wrong). So generally the volley ball match is between majority of Math Teachers and the students. Go back to the Captain ball match, between the teachers, got Principal, Mrs. Woo (she fell down and ater a few moment of the match, she hugged Pranesh tried to take the ball from him. Quite rare scenery. :p), my CME teacher Ms. Chan, my ex physic teacher, Mr. Eugene Yong (so cute of him sia...), Mdm. Anisa Ali (sorry teacher, but you are to short to take the ball from Nathiya) and finally all the P.E. teachers that I don't know what's their name, just know that they are P.E. teachers. They go and compete with the students, which got Pranesh (bloody him lar... Sue Ting and me want to kick his *s* already, coz he was so irritating), Nats, Ili, Eve, Nikhili, Khaidzir, Wei Yuan (his band performance very impressive), Jack Chou a.k.a Cheng Hao (don't know what's wrong with him, he can't catch a ball I guess. Sorry Jack Chou!) and some of the students from nowhere. Dunno who won sia... Dun care... I hope for the Volley ball, the winner is the teacher and the Captain ball the winner is the students. Fair enough right? Finish all of those things, must go back to Parade Square and assembly there. After that, aiyah... must go for the Physics Class, coz Mr. Chua wanted to go through the test paper with us. Stayed there for 1 1/2 - 2 hours! In the last minute, a lot of people want to go home already and complain to Mr. Chua, but he never care about it! Then he returned our homework! Wah siao... I almost angry leh when he said that I never pass up the 3.1 TYS! He said that he never see my paper. Walaw... Then I asked Genevieve and Nikhili and they all said don't know. Almost die sia... Then finally Ili found it for me (THANX Ili!). Sorry Genevieve if just now I just being a little bit rude to you, coz I thought that you never pass it up to him or may be lost it. Sorry! After that, Eve, Ili and me went to KFC to take our lunch. Quite nice lunch lar... Then after that went home, then sent a lot of photos from my handphone to laptop by bluetooth. And finally, updated my blogs.

Siaoness

2006-08-06T14:31:00.000+08:00

Thanx to show me all of your concern to me, thanx for everything that you have done for me. I have nothing else to say, then thank you so much. Hope that next time your opinion still the same. Anyway, far from my sad story yesterday, I want to share a 'happiness' here. I don't know whether the happiness is the fake or the real? I just found that a lot of people still care about me, a lot of people still concern about me, a lot of people still want me to stay here. All the story began this morning, where my short journey has started. Woke up early in the morning, quite sleepy, but yet must wake up. My maid woke me up from my nice and long dream about 'bomb from 421'. Huehehe... Woke up and tried to find my spects, but couldn't find coz in fact I tried to find it in the wrong place! Then, turned on the water heater, must wait for 5 mins (so long sia...) and I almost fell asleep again! Than again my maid woke me up! Haiyah... Can't leave me sleep peacefully sia... Then took a long long bath (5-7 mins my standard, long bath = 2*standard time = 10-15 mins). After bathing, took my breakfast (sandwich with tuna and my guardian can't just shut up, talked for the whole breakfast, explained to me about the westerner who eat tuna sandwich for their lunch. Bloody hell! She thought I'm sooooo stupid or what? Who cares about her sia?). Changed my home cloth to my official chruch clothes. Put a little bit of powder and mascara (for a long time never use it). Then, ready for the show! You know what, my guardian's daughter really unspeakable! Her behaviour... alamak like shit like that! Do pangsai also never flush! What kind of girl sia? School: Hai Sing Sec Sch, a good catholic school, but yet can't teach the student to flush the toilet. So disgusting!!! Then eat breakfast also took time very very very very very long! Really don't know other vocabulary that can describe her, although I open my dict right now beside me! She also like to SCOLD her parent, not her parent the one who scold her! Wah siao already..... Went to church, wore the shorts with slipper and army tops (totally NOT MATCH AT ALL!). Siao siao siao.... Then reached home, did homeworks and chat with Joyce and Eve (funny, nice and good conversations. Rate: 5 stars, *thumbs up*). Talked about a lot of stuffs, of course got eve's web (www.dxy.pyss.com --> not a real website, only to show something that you probably don't understand), my 'bomb from 421' and somebody else linked to Joyce. Hahaha.... Then, now, I got nothing to do better, so I just update my blogs before I closed it and never update it until next week. I'll only update this blogs on weekend and not on weekdays. If, I update on weekdays that's mean I got project or homework that linked with internet! So... See you again gals! -GBU-

Welcome

2006-08-05T18:23:00.000+08:00

I really don't have any other way to show my emotions. I don't know what should I do, so I just set up a new brand blogs here. I decided to come back to blogger. I gave the title as tears-of-mine because recently I have a lot of reasons to cry. I have a lot of reasons to give up and I have a lot of reasons to make sadness having the biggest part on my life. Sometimes, I feel that I'm very happy, but in other occasion, I feel very sad about something and I can make the thing become very dreadful for me. Sometimes I realised that my happiness is a fake, sometimes I realised that I'm not happy after all. May be I can laughing away with people, at school, smiling away to other people, outside school and outside my room. I may do such of this thing, but I can't lie to my own heart, I can't lie to myself. I can't bluff my own mind. I can't do. Outside my bedroom, I always change to other person, that always smile, that always cheerful, that always ready to help other people with their problem, that always ready to do every single thing that other people ask me to do so. But, inside my bedroom, far away from other people, I can't do like that. I just can't do it. Deep inside my heart, I always cry, but who knows? No one know! I act perfectly, so that people will never guess that actually I'm very sad. Deep inside, a lot of problems that I must face it ON MY OWN. People may advice me to do like this, to do like that, but they never think, how it feel actually. A lot of things I must face it on my own! But yet, I still never give up. But, if something goes very wrong already and I don't know how to solve it or the solution doesn't make me satisfy, I may give all of these thing up. I don't want to carry all of these problems forever. What's problem? Let's say, my backbone problem. It's very painful already. People may say, "take care.", but they don't really know how I can take care, if my school seemed to not allow me to take care of my backbone. I really appreciate Mr. Lee and Mr. Chua who tolerate me to not bring my school books, but yet it doesn't solve the problem. How about other teacher? For example, Malay. When I didn't bring my textbook, even before I can explain my reason to ther teacher, she punished me already, asked me to copy the assignment 3 times! How then? Am I still can take care of my backbone? It's very easy for people to ask me to take care of it, but the don't know what's the problem in front of me. Therefore, a lot of things on my life make me cry wothout other people know about it. When they read it, probably it's to late already, who knows? Thanx for everybody that care enough to me, thanx for everybody that 'sometimes' stay beside me. Thanx for everything! I really appreciate it! -GBU-